haaaaaaaa

NO WONDER THERE'S WAR. :P
JUST BECAUSE YOU SPELLED IT WRONGLY.
LOL.

oheyy. life's becoming much more lonely then ever. now i realize its just text that making all this promises. but we didn't even met. those word come out from you are all lying i guess.
i need to move on from now there's no point thinking about all this when ITS OVER. I'm looking ahead for 2008, new year = new friends? hopefully and new band fucking my style im going to bring that band up. Anyway fuck those 2 face bastard fuck you and fuck your mother(this is not a dedication to anyone, DON'T FUCKING JUMP TO CONCLUSION.)

AH FUCK THAT, LOOK'S LIKE MUCH MORE BANDS FROM MY WISH LIST ARE COMING.

• INCUBUS
• DREAM THEATER
  
• BJORK (JAKARTA)
• MILES AWAY
• PARKWAY DRIVE (KL)

i'm in need of work. those i know already gotten themselves work.
not me, im still flipping and looking under classified session though...

and sibs, thanks for all the concern. i can count on you. if you want a bf, im here. haha

and.

Bjork - Hyperballad

seeing her live at youtube is enough and rumours have been spreading, yupp.. she is touring near singapore which is INDONESIA. woohoo.
but its rumours. you know sometimes is true and not. but INCUBUS IS REALLY COMING TO SINGAPORE. fuck yeah. and also i'm eager which local band's gonna do the opening act. hmmm.
lets wait and see...

We live on a mountain
Right at the top
There's a beautiful view
From the top of the mountain
Every morning I walk towards the edge
And throw little things off
Like:
Car parts, bottles and cutlery
Or whatever I find lying around

It's become a habit
A way
To start the day

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

It's early morning
No one is awake
I'm back at my cliff
Still throwing things off
I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow with my eyes 'til they crash
Imagine what my body would sound like
Slamming against those rocks

When it lands
Will my eyes
Be closed or open?

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier

To be safe up here with you

sing in azri

Tiring day from "holiday", i call this holiday a HELLiday. Some Aunt of Mine are so super KIASU i just can't stand them when they are at the KIASU mode, other then that i'm okay with it. I thought i could relax my mind where my aunt leaves, she a local there. Over there i was treated more like "HELPING HANDS" or should i say more like a SERVANT. But at least i got to bond with my mum and my sis and also my lil cousins, these people make me think to stay longer from Friday and i reach Singapore Monday morning around 10AM.

here's a story about SYIRR, i met her at STARBUCKS;RAFFLES. bring along my laptop. thanks syirr for the laughing moments.. aha. i won't forget the part where she ask me where am i taking my bus and i response confidently "near the fire" supposed to answered near fire station and there she goes laughing at me. wahhh. and i got to laugh at her back when i saw the FULL MOON and she goes im evolving im a NOBLE WOLF and she shakes her heads off and laugh at her own jokes. lol. funny moment... awwww. And because of her i made new friends, erin was like friendly type not like what i think off when i heard her voice over the phone. both of them was hitting the laptop's keyboard like they own it, fighting over some conversation about BOOBS. I was rather closing my ears and pretend i didn't hear anything. Indeed a best way to have my Christmas eve spent at starbucks and a stroll down town area, syahirah awie or whatever it is. thanks for the time and the laughing moments, best moments of my Christmas's eve. Oh and she was wearing a blue light Skirt for the first time i saw a skirt on her, hahahhahahahahahahahahahahah okay daaa.

and and i thought i would be alone at home while my friends have fun BUT syirr delete the word alone from my head. THANKS LAA.

sign off azri.

guess im the "red lace" and Raymond's on the "yellow lace"
lol, out of sudden he apologies to me, i know i left the band but doesn't meant i will leave you
guys too, if that rumors you have heard thats all bullshit. hmmm.
its going to be 5am soon. and later on i'm heading to my aunt's place for the festive hari raya aidil adha. the slaughter kambing.!! eh kambing or lembu? hahahha im blurred myself.
anway i made friends with X, after so long since we chat. though we are in the same school different course. but still im happy X talked to me. laugh alot and stuff. just don't want to see X pissed off, that would be the last time i see X pissed off, so burok siak. lol.
and another angel from heaven is CHANEL! i don't know if she is reading this,
"curiosity breeds contempt."-Mr chin, my ex secondary school teacher
till now i still can remember what he says, its all in my mind.
anyway, chanel told me she was curious weather im okay or not when she saws my nick.
here's my nick "i lost few "brothers/friend" during a battle. and learn not to JUMP INTO CONCLUSION each time you're not sure off!!!!!!!!!!!"
she care enough to console and share some of her bad experience with me.
THANKS ALOT CHANEL. it really helps, if she were to be my girlfriend... life would be much more easier for me and for her i guess. hahaha. okay .
countdown for my days. 3 months around there? hhahahh oh
yeah i hack into the school system, i guess almost all my classmate did it too, so blame all. we hack in the system just to see our final GPA scores! oh and i score a perfect 1.417. perfect man
haahha -_-'''
actually i must get at least 4 to really secure my place at polytechnic, and 3 so teachers will look up to you. but i guess hey its my last exam. ahaahahahhahahahaha
hacking care was in my dictionary i guess. hahaha lol. shit.

pass 5am now and still i have not yet sleep. brothers on the guitar fucking dillinger escape plan.
and guess what
INCUBUS COMING TO TOWN, AND IN THE MONTH OF MARCH, he is paying the ticket for me and her gfs. wohooo. another free concert from him. first was funeral for a friend. oh my godd. im happy. really happy . okayy wait till

hi

breaking up a band is like breaking up a girlfriend.

1.417 ----------> final GPA.

ah fuck, that's my final GPA.
from 2 pointer drop to 1.9 then now
ahh fuck it.

i need JOB...
JOB SEEKING = HIDE AND SEEK




thanks

It's too late to make amends

Can't trust no one, for a life of my own, I'll destroy motherfuckers on their so called throne. nobody's innocent, that's just a big lie. I'll look out for my boys till the day I fucking die. You gotta look out for you and yours, and when the motherfuckers step, you gotta just cause. Destroy your enemies or they'll do the same to you, so watch your back and keep it raw, or you'll be through. So much shit, you gotta choose, stake your claim then make your move.

Welcome to my world, a labrynth of death and deceit. I've been on the frontline of the streets. Down and dirty, that's how I get did it the hardway, earned my respect. Use my negative energy to force my ways, all I know is that it passes the pain. Society's weight on my shoulders, criminal minded, can't control it. I do the things I can't explain, take my pride to the grave.

Your attitude, it sickens me, I'll turn away and let you bleed, see the other side of the gemini.


from the start i know i would not trust you. its A FUCKING OKAY NOT TO TALK TO ME OR DON'T TRUST ME. You lie to me cry to me Bitch you cross me now I gotta kill ya.

Can't stand that I won't leave, how did this come to be, you can't get rid of me because we run this scene. Who are you? Who are you? Cause I know what I'll do. Who are you? To think that I'll bow to you.

And I won't change because of what they say. I choose to live my life this way and I won't change no matter what they think I choose to live my life my choice my game.

And I'm tired of your face, the one you love to hate, all I want, money, fame, that's how I play this game. Live, my life, day by day. Grill's busted, that's o.k. there's only one thing to do.

I'm talking to you, it doesn't matter what I do I've got nothing to prove, and if you challenge you will lose. You're going to lose. Try to stop me, you're a joke. Want me to leave but I won't go. Got the facts, in your face, step into this hardcore graze. Boots a d braces busted faces dirty deed done dirt cheep. We're the ones on the attack. Old school, coming back.

bff stab bff right infront

anxiety.
she gives me only her name on friendster but not her number nor her email address. we only got to contact after confirmation she wears a braces.hahaha lol.
making me refresh every 2minutes. oohhhh its just a friend. no more...


hmmm this week i felt so much different. i don't know, but maybe hands keep pushing.
whatever it is i must get to know the truth. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
girls girls girls. lol. making me a headache, for once the come and later on they will go for like a month why? ahhh... this is not dear diary but im writing the fact. when they are really many "fishes" in the pond none really look at my bait but after few months they tend to go really near the bait smelling the bait.
ahahaha.

okay so i have been out from home for like since Saturday till Thursday afternoon. miss my mum though and my bed. hahah.

first 3dats 2night i spend mostly at kl and going back to island Singapore.
the gig there was awesome i stage dive for the first time. and my room mate for the first night was rico and azura. but azura finds us boring but in the end i and rico was laughing till 4am ++
we were making fun of the tv shows and making our own subtitle following the actors reaction .lol.

kkkkkkkk. bye.
hahaha

this is all i have

it's been so long since it's rained this hard, so i'll drive with the windows down to remember how it felt to feel alive. the sky starts to clear as i'm passing by your house for the second time again, you're still away...and i'm still here. how long has it been since you've been at home with me? i'm trying to hold on, but i'm just keeping you away. you said 'i'm still standing, i'm just looking for a reason.' i'm standing right here. but i'm holding on too tight, you're looking right through me...or do you feel me at all? and this will never be enough, but if you're going down- this is all i have, just fucking take it. this is all i am, it's always been for you. choke and break and drown and steal. take it all again. just say you'll never leave. just never leave

KCIS

its december 5, and still not down well. 3 days down with fever and throats becoming thinner and thinner favourite food turns back for me. i can"t even swallow any of my delicious food. and worse on this day is my mum is not felling so good either. oohhhh well, and i have to go buy food when is freezing out there its like im at the north pole. every step i lay its gets to my head and thus headache. 4 people ask me out today, one of which is "spanner boy" , "every man for himself" , "man toyak" and "mondo". haha obviously these are key words. im disguising them for some reason.

while im typing the more my stomach is making sound. headache is getting worse pills i swallow doesn't do good in fact makes me more ill. im going to have another visit to the doctor. oh fever is running high hopefully i can make it for the BBH5 show i wouldn't want to miss it. its my first gig ever with another band from another country, oh by the way

i just sat for my last paper at 1Pm sharp.
and i bring good news...

I HAVE FINISH MY 2 YEARS IN THAT BLARDY "HIGH-TECH" ITE SIMEI SCHOOL.
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... no more smelling human being that never bath for a week or so.


but sadly, i saw this cute girl at cafe 1 just now and just ONCE of all my entire 2 year at that school, she smile at me but i was dumb enough not to smile back and that cute girl was my first X back at primary school.. ahahah yes how lovely when we used to take the same bus to school but we didn't sit together, but we talk on the phone and we hang around chai chee.. fondest memories. oh my. i will never ever gonna see her but but i see her around my estate now which is McPherson. i think she is stalking me where ever i go she is always there. but i never get to talk to her. ahhhh!
its okay let that be a lesson to me. hopefullly i will get to talk to her,

now off to movie marathon...

personal best

I have been at home resting for 2 days after the marathon on 2nd December which is on Sunday.
A tiring run, well not that tiring just that i have not been running for like since i was primary school. And the result came out, yes yes! ahah. i print screen bacause i want it memorable as this is my first time joining this event.
oh by the way the winner of my division clock in 0:34:43!!! imagine 34 mins for 10km.
oh he is from nepal. kumar rai.
how can they get so fast?
when i clock in at 1:08:38

*this is the timing. start at 7:15 AM but i start crossing the start line at 7:25 AM*
*imagine 2162 finishers behind*

*good to have all this record, lol. *

*the yellow arrows shows the last runner of my division when i cross the finish line*

*my location when my division winner finished. all because of the baggage deposit if not i might be 2nd or 3rd :P*

*sadly thats where i was when all the position were taken up.*



at least i did my best for my first time. next running event i want to do my best and clock in better than this. haha for sure i will and i think don't need a shoe so much expensive i was using this bata shoe. and i clock in at 1:08:38. my personal best.

and now im down with high fever and stomach ache and headache. damnnnn..
tomorrow is my paper for SNA module, i have not been studying but hopefully luck is on my side.
please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha
okay i better eat something and watch some movie before going to bed and medicine too.
haha take care.

timed

finally i 2 most important task in my life have done it with flying colours. first of all was the gig held at Bukit Batok CC, although there was some cock-ups.
but for sure i myself enjoy it.. and of course its good to play alongside with the veteran yes like outofsight,realize,shadows, and those we used to play with.
i got home around 11+ and checking my emails and stuff, getting ready for my 10km the next morning. all geared up and actually it feels good to run on road and by the time i was at starting point. hahahaha. there was like 40,000 runner. never mind. i aim for my personal best time as this is my second time participating. i think doing stuff like is healthy but really great tracks. i wonder how ashar(ERIS vocalist) could took up the challenge for the 42km. i talk to him on the net asking him how was 42km.
ahahah guess what he say was his leg are about to fall off. imagine that, hah i was laughing at him, and this was his 2nd time. not bad timed at 6hours +

oh my time clocked at 1hour 39mins, and and after the race i was sight seeing a lil bit only myself know.
hahaa lol. now for me to rest and 2 more days to SNA exam and im off from ITE.
wohoo and finding a job till i got my results.