THE MESS

Hiatus

2009-11-29T06:05:00.001-08:00

I have not been logging on for a very long time, and gues what, im typing this entry via iphone my home pc monitor failed in me, no no more late movies and stuff.. Sigh i only remember to log in to blogspot is because of sj, if youre reading it i have not been updating here instead you can call me up and i will update you personally haha okay bye

hi

2009-05-29T01:57:00.000-07:00

life's been a fuck up. thats the reason for not updationg but i got to escape from life. and when to visit jakarta. it was fucking awesome i met alot of people talk about bands and stuff that make me feel like i wanna reform and make a band. that's all. and im close to 8months. can't wait.

aeiou

2008-11-09T23:01:00.000-08:00

mr obama has a real job now.
when i don't. he won the presidential this year. i don't
he got to stay at the white house. why mr nathan didn't stay at the Istana?
haha.
okay not a threat thought. just a mind of my talking.
get that straight.
read the news 2 accused got charged just planning to kill mr obama
hmmmm

world's getting crazy.
more robots.
soon they will destroy usssssss.
okay this part where i think i watched too much irobot and stuff.

okay now guess what. (youdonhavetoguess)
im going back to the real life of national slavery
opps national service. after 1/2 months being attached as orang minyak or refuelling guys for the boats.
get to meet alots of people working at different departments with different thoughts of the force.
and also thousands different and same answers.

anyway im going to stay in for another 3more months
thanks for my tonsils operation
if not i would be patroling hmmm or should i say sleeping??
you decide.
okay bye.
friday im booking out.
wahhh..! can die lorcxcxcxcxc

r

2008-10-27T22:01:00.000-07:00

this time round, no fucking pictures.. i believe there's and angst inside of me. that i should have revealed long time ago.
i'm always have 2nd thoughts of what you people would think of well now i won't, i won't care even if the way i reply to you hurts you the most cause i'm sick and tired of getting those "knife- sharping words" or those word that can kill me. but behind that smile lies a big fist right to youf face. come up to me one more time and i would go straight to your face no chance if you are my closest friends or you think i'm your bestfriend. i never believe in that either. friends fucking forever? hahaha typed again, FRIENDS FOREVER? <--- the way i see is friends forever till i have a gfs then its bye-bye to you, you understand? no its okay. it's my own english my own accents my own type of understanding. no need to correct me if im wrong. like as if you are always right mr dictionary....

get off the cyber world if you are private.
go get yourself a paper a pen and a locker then.

COLOURS

2008-09-30T23:07:00.000-07:00

full-moon 15september
another moon picture
full moon from the kitchen
blk 44.
close-up

start here:
final destination 1

final destination 2

final destination 3

final destination 4

final destination 5

final destination 6

final destination 7

moving tree 1

moving tree three.

colours right on your feet.
colours right on your feet.

colours right on your feet.

colours right on your feet.

colours right on your feet.

15134151313 colour-bit.
1363413413453 colour-bit

bad editing skills.

Chelsea smile

in-out zoom

free ride to your home boat.

have heart?

have heart 1

star-gaze here.

missing word RI. = AZRI

twilight zone
musical note 1.

3?

8 or music note?

mirror 9

azri?
star in the making 1

star in the making 2

star in the making 3

star in the making 4

star in the making 5
star in the making 6

STAR!

please sign here

3faces.

on top of that i'm still alive.
alive.

bridge. to. ill-repute place.

raymondo.

busker/musician/___

no colour
got colour lor -_-''

c

c
iso 100

nicest.

prettiest!

gorgeous

day 3

2008-09-20T16:25:00.000-07:00

i myself got turn off looking at that picture.
i know its disgusting. that white spot is due to err the equipment they use for the operation
its the aftermath.

Electrocautery: Electrocautery burns the tonsillar tissue and assists in reducing blood loss through cauterization. Research has shown that the heat of electrocautery (400°C) results in thermal injury to surrounding tissue. This may result in more discomfort during the postoperative period.

yup they use that.
thats why its white.
but it will go off.
okay off to art house. take picture for my brother band. then i will travel where the light is.
:p

aftermath

2008-09-19T20:41:00.000-07:00

PAIN!!!
really discomforting
but the anesthesia was so fun.
haha all i know when i enter the operation theater i was okay.
when they ask me to take a deep breath while they want to put me to sleep
but i didn't. i was fighting against it. but it was tooo strong. all i know i was looking left to right with my heads up. and suddenly i was at this ward where all those after surgery will be there.
and i was like sober, nausea .. and the nurses over there was superb.
they ask me to suck on this ice pops.
oh and i remembered i was having tears dropping. i know i didn't cry. cause i didn't feel the pain at that point of time.
alright.
15 days of mc.
more water more ice cream more and more of porridge and also oat meals.
15 more day man..

eve of surgery.

2008-09-17T23:59:00.000-07:00

alright lets compare this is before. that thing i just circled, that's tonsils.
im going to remove it tomorrow at 8am.
alright. good luck azri and have fun in the operation theater lol.
and do remember to fast from 12midnight now till tomorrow 8am alright.
i"m not going to snore no more! ahahah and get infected that is the first thing i removed it lol.
aside from that no more snore. actually do i snore?? haha i doubt so.
okay
afer 5 days attachement at pns office at brani base.
this guy (below) must be working hard after seeing some action of the special task squadron uhh.. lol. haha.
alright im going to miss this guy i call him fat, i fed him so many times while the other one is not like him. but he exercise

operation x

2008-09-13T23:36:00.000-07:00

hello world. i want world piece. hahah PIECE. get it.
okay boring start.
anyway updates on my tonsils. 3rd appointment with my sweetest dr ever. when do you get greeted by a doctor with a "heyyy hi. whatzup muhddd azrii" firstly shocking and secondly whoaaaaaaa. coolest doctor ever.hahaha. lol.
sadly i could not see her no more. and

OPERATION IN 4 MORE DAYS LEFT. HAPPY YET REALLY SCARED? OR SHOULD I SAY NERVOUS OF THE SIDE EFFECT AND THE AFTERMATH,

hopefully they will really cut away my tonsils. all of it! like not a piece left for the bacteria to sit on it.
hahaha.
and i will be okay. its a minor operation but takes around 10 days for the full recover.
i don need to fast. hehehe. but the counsellor told me you will not be able to swallow ur own salive. as it is really really pain. so i think im going to fast. the way not to die out of hunger is.

ICE CREAM.
so im going to eat ice cream for at least errr 11 days? hahaha

okay so its 2 days of fasting only.
yeahhh pathetic i know. just now went out with my usual bunch of secondary school friends.
dinner at lau pa sat and i don even need to fork out my own money for my own food.
kevin pay for the food while syahirah pay for the drinks while farhanah pays for the satay.
the COMPULSORY SATAY! wtf, we had to order satay in order to like buy something like rice.
he was like come on la buy la. then we got the xs like combo meal. aahah. merepek!!!
okay
then went to city hall met hakims fren off to bugis for drinks and homeeee..
okay this is the time for me to update as im doing 9 to 5 job at pulau brani.
really far from home., :(
and staff assistance really bores me.
and sucks.
but my superiors are fun to work with. she is not like thos bossy type. on top of that its a she and she is a malay.
so she kinda understands fasting month and im going to go for my operation.
i got another 5.5 leave to go before the end of december.
so yeah better use it fast man.
alright sisters and brothers.
im offf to errrr reply msgs. and do something.
somethingggggggggg.
okay longest entry. wohooo cause lots of entering la dey!

FOR HUI YI

2008-09-06T15:22:00.000-07:00

ramadhan

2008-08-31T23:47:00.000-07:00

i've not been really updating my blog yeah? guess this 1 week off i got from pcg. i will have some time updating pictures and stuff. passing out ceremony''s out of my mind.. police coast guard is my new unit and tomorrow's the first day of fasting and there comes my pharyngitis.
supposed to have my operation done on the 27 august, but crashed with my poc. now i have to wait till 11 OKTOber. getting rid of it is painful, one of my bunkmate cut off his side throat (i donno how to explain) after the operation, he told me "wanna swallow his saliva also pain"ahh fucking hell.
ahh removing my tonsill.. thats what it call!!
lol.
cant wait to get that off. so i wont have any infection and its hard to swallow your own food.
alright looking at those white thing on the tonsills makes me wanna use my hand and take it out myself. ahhhhhhhhhh!

selamat berpuasa guys.
and hopefully i can fast yeah.

catch my wave

2008-07-21T14:03:00.000-07:00

finally i got sometime to blog, ndp have been tiring.. really tiring. 2 more show and im out of HTA,
talking about POP, my intake will be passing out this wednesday and my squad is deployed to do guard duty. fuck man if not for ndp we would pass out this wednesday!! now it will be all 3 ndp squad. what we do every monday to friday is PT with those unfit squad from 132intake and also lesson and lesson. my body is aching from last ne3 show.
come one 9 august hurry!!!!

-

2008-07-04T21:35:00.000-07:00

from Sunday, June 08, 2008 till friday, july 04, 2008

i was really busy, its like i had to pull my tiredness to the next day and over and over again... its very tiring man, and more over i've just lost a love one whom i treat her just like my mother, my beloved grandmother... really sad to seen her go off with her sister on the 17june. she pass away on the 18june at 1330hrs.
i was having my lunch when my sister called.
before i booked in she still would remember me called me by my name, even though she was in pain...
may you rest in peace.
as im typing im feeling nervous for tomorrow's show
national education first show for national day parade 08.
hopefully more pictures of me please.!!!

agh

2008-06-08T13:51:00.000-07:00

such a long hole from the last entry.
fvery busy with NDP training.
last sat was the first time training at marina,
atmosphere was so different alot of cheerleader and hot girls in uniform
ohhhhhhhhhhhhh! lol

anyway i've yet to watch NARNIA!
fuckfuckfuckfuck.
okay anyway here are some pictures lol.

ns16

2008-04-25T14:35:00.000-07:00

the best 4 get to go home on friday due to we pass our ippt!
im happy and i got to see cbk live in singapore.
despite the hectic life after enlistment.
now im happy.
just happy.,
schedule for ndp goh unit printed
total 40 training, damn it.
im getting darker and darker where else everyone is also -_-
okay this is the second book out. fuu...
i can make it!

bicep in processsee see

tiring dayhahah

the one i can rely on, he is a nurse lol!

my best place of all!

bunk 35 the crazy

ippt pass!

another shot

bunk 35!

candid!

can see my muscle growing right

16hrs

2008-04-07T17:00:00.000-07:00

at this moment im nervous, im so nervous..
a "farewell party at MOS" consider that myself thanks raymond,epull,hafiz, and my gay partner RASOOOL!

alright i got all my stuff from mustafa center late night shopping at 2 end at 4 with my man tommy asmara from breaking point drummer who was partially drunk and still survive while i was shopping like mad. mad yes. we end up talking about relationships blablabla till uniform kids rushing for bus, lol

left to pack up, and meet up my friends going lepak.com/my
okay

NERVOUS SIAAA.
i just wish you were here every second oh that goes to someone i donno who, but i just felt like typing okay go i typed it already.

from now, i left like 16hours
and the boys are coming over my house today and i had to do some "house cleaning"
another last min plan leaving party.

im booking out on the 18april, then shall continue that on monday and booking out 1800hrs on friday
then booking in at 2030hrs for like 3 months..

if you guys happened to miss me, i will only on my hp after 1200midnight 1:00am???
okay if you guys miss me la don waste my battery im saving it till the 18april which is my first booking out. ahhhh if you wanna pick me up or see me with uniform on my first booking at 1860hrs at cck mrt, okay?
hopefulyl someone that i know will turn up pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

IM FUCKING NERVOUS, OKAY THAT IS THE LAST TIME

NERVOUS. OKOKOK SORRY I GO POST NOW.

cloud 100

2008-04-06T13:51:00.000-07:00

There must be something behind the cloud.

lucky lamp post!

curiosity breeds contempt

ahh 311 day :P

nice one

gambar.

2008-04-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

i feel you

hi 5

PLAINSUNSET

PACKUPSET

fan

$127 birthday gift

birthday girft from syrr

chanel stared mio

360 home day.

alright!

purple room :(

shutter fun

jay-walking

kitchen view

dead van

90 degrees

lovely mum

indoor

messy living room

suria segar!

closet

"open" closet

MICKEY MOUSE

"amik gambar jer, abeh tak tau sembahyang"

okay la one pose jer okay.

10TH FLOOR

sunny day , jemur djembe

read and spread.

2008-04-05T06:03:00.000-07:00

im not updated on your fashion
the way you talk
the way you walk
i don even understand you
take note, im not cool
i used my shirt all over again
its time for me to be like that and don change me please.
i bulc is because life so short
and you don't see me that often.
oh, fuck off when you are talking about other people when you yourself are so wrong with what you wear and speak
hahah quotes after quotes you cut and paste now you are on top you left.
i knew it from the start.
if you think its you whom im talking about bitch-talking on my blog then go ahead don see me, delete from the cyber world.
delete me from your typical myspace,friendster and don forget msn, if you have facebook then you'll have a long way to go.
whoa. now you are into everything!!!!

haah im not pinpointing on someone.
neither him or her

i think you should copy this quote
"sape makan chilli, die terase pedas" -yeah, im typical i admit.

early

2008-04-04T16:04:00.000-07:00

early as i got up from bed, i didn't even bath nor brush my teeth i went to the nearest ATM machine to check if i was really imagining? but i wasn't it was in so i was fucking happy top up my pp, and took out 300 for my mum and she was fucking happy as in just happy yeah?

so anyone's going? cause i'm?
last call?
no? ahh fuck it.

2008-04-03T19:03:00.000-07:00

i got my pay and now i left 5days to enjoy.
all thanks to my pay day which was 15march if not i would traveling around bali or Thailand damn it.
fuck man and now they ar giving me this contract form when i was working with them from january, now then wanna send
and and i got my pay around 3digit. not 4!!!! $164 goes to my CPF account man. fuck!
now i cant get my msg across pple online on msn!!!!!!!

okay 5 more days
i cant sleep properly.

2008-03-31T23:02:00.000-07:00

super late picture , "now then want to upload when your birthday is 1 march"lelong!!!
hahahahahah how sweet

thanks brother!

syahirah and humairah both rawrr

next up pictures and lots of pictures!

2008-03-29T12:23:00.000-07:00

fucking up shows, selling merch taking pictures
stage dive is the way.
now i have to say goodbye my 5year old ol skool black size 10 VANS shooeee. im gonna miss ya.

HORSE/KUDA THE BAND

2008-03-19T22:58:00.000-07:00

HORSE the band
"A NATURAL DEATH"
20RM/8USD/10SGD!
(you can get the cd from me!)

AND THEY ARE TOURING SINGAPORE THIS 29TH MARCH AT HOME CLUB

insubussaosin

2008-03-14T23:07:00.000-07:00

some pictures from incubus show.

*me and my 4year buddy 4years! yeah balls.*

oh now i recalled that we came early for the show. meet the dude samir from bartley sec, and and we were like so close to see incubus live and also they are doing some sound checks!!!
how awesome , during their sound check they played quicksand,punchdrunk and also look alive which is the best song from light grenade, Jose Pasillas wave at us when they are done sound check, and and funny part was samir was like waving and trying to snap a picture which he did but he snap the double yellow line instead. he was fucking nervous, cause Jose Pasillas is his idol. and he look a bit like him so yah.
and his reaction was "eh! eh! jose wave kat kiter!!"
and there goes the snap of yellow line HAHAH.
and he call brandon, BRON-DON, over excited uh then mine was like GOMBAR!
hahahahahahahahaha exciting and nervous day, like we are going to perform that night!

*this is the queue when is was only like 4?*

*samir showing off his shuffling skills. *
*this is where it began man!*

*ohhh brandon (pictures from dear brother)*

*ben kenny is like man of the match, with his bass solo and those groppies. eheh.*
and also go to this link click here.
to see his studio record. such a musician.

*brandon did took off his shirt, and the girl beside whom i made friends with. was out of her lungs out of her voice she was like aaarrghhh Brandon!! then i like, errr hey Brandon did took out his shirt. she replied err yaaa. i think orgasm already lol*
*magic carpet! they bought at joo chiat complex*
*oohhhhh, brandon! nicest shot from my brother*

*a link of both pictures by different photographer*
*ashek*

*amaka**dj kilmore with his 2-steps!*
*woohoo*
*jose Pasillas ||*

*cove reber!!!!*
*5 time guitar swing i don't that dude name.*

OKAY NEXT ENTRY WILL BE THE PICTURES ON BLEEDING THROUGH!
ISNT THIS FUN, SHOWS AFTER SHOWS. NO MATTER WHAT GENRE. WHY CAN'T YOU PEOPLE BE LIKE ME HUHUHUHUHUH!!!
LOL.

3shows.

2008-03-12T19:25:00.000-07:00

Didn't i tell you then incubus was fucking awesome, but not the fans.
saosin is awesome although i can't hear much on cove reber.
then a night at my house,
8pm i went to see fajar on the way to KL.
too many stories and too many shits happened.
too fast till im too lazy to type all those things that happened

we reached puduraya at 230am finding a hotel to stay and every hotel we when in we got reject cause there is no more rooms for us. but we got this hotel and that is for those "special hotel with special someone you pay"
yeahhh and we stayed in for like only from 3am till 10am and make our way to cavana inn which is another hard hotel to find yet again i'm fucking fed up tired and also hungry. but we managed to find them and found three lovely brothers from ERIS, shazni asshar and also rasool. thanks for the crashing in guys!
we came in and they are still asleep. then we had our breakfast. that is where all our jokes start till we reached singapore.

bleeding through was fucking awesome meet alot of new friends from myhc. yeah yeahh
i just love the mosh pit at there man. its so lively every hit you take you would go like haiya takder pape laaa.. like that i got hit at the nose nicely take from this guy who is body surfing with his fist clenching straight to my nose. thanks .hahaha
im just happy cause i got derek's drumstick and i was fucking shock they have a meet and greet with them, i ask the 2 guitarist and bassist and also the drummer signature on the drum yeah don believe it i will take a pic of itt.
eheheh and i took alot of posters for free. hahaha and also flyers and also ermmmm i got 20bucks from faja the money we earn from just selling buttons. woohohohhhohoh

now i keep dreaming about martha on the bed with me swinging her hair off and making me maggie goreng every time for breakfast.
damn it....

ahh fuck. still can't upload pictures man,..
some other time.

OVERJOYED

2008-03-07T03:53:00.000-08:00

7:45pm local time incubus reached the island singapore.
10:45am local time, 3 miss call from manager times. (i didn't turn up for work)

i didn't return a call back. and tomorrow i have to work but i need to take my ite certificate and also incubus start lining up and hopefully it wont rain! pleaseeeee!

and now its 3:42pm after shots of "comics" but before that i shot "around the house."
hehe.
chanel was my model. we were talking about pranks when i send her those BAAAHHH image when you are counting or reading or looking for red dots, so funny a per frame capture he being FREAK OUT!!
and also come cool pictures.. wohoo. which im going to upload after she edit a comics type. now its just pictures of 1 march making waves gig at esplanade and also my birthdayyyy. :P

OKAY GUESS WHAT ANOTHER DAYY LAA.
CAUSE COMPUTER STUCK HALFWAY!!

I CANT SLEEP DUE HE OVER JOY OF INCUBUS CONCERT LATER ON...
;LANEAJENG;AGNE;AUGENG;EB;UABGE

OWOHOOO

1march baby!

2008-03-01T11:45:00.000-08:00

i would like to thank my mum for all this while bearing with me giving me hope.
to date she has carry me from 19years and 12months!
i love you mother!

and then comes to my brother!
thank you for the late buy of incubus ticket.
which was 127$
and a box of pizza and thank you for borrowing 20bucks,
i will pay you that 20$.

and to all thanks for the wishes laaa.. i got myspace,friendster wishes.. and blog entry for only me which was aziee and syiir did that. thank you.
and those LOVELY SMS AFTER PAST 12. ohhhh and also MIDNIGHT MADNESS 4 people.
especially breaking point! the lchc pple.

and this is a special thank you to FAAT,RAYMOND,SYIRR,ERIN,HAFIZ,AHTANK,BOTAK,FEEZAH,ACAH.
THOSE CLOSE TO ME. ALRIGHT!

OKAY TOO MANY THANK YOU
and those i forgot im so sorry. oh nurul for the birthday songs over the phone!

hey even though i don get any present as well i got those lovely wishes im greatfull enough
but still BELATED GIFT, I STILL ACCEPT IT WITH BOTH HANDS SMILING ABIT WIDER THEN YOU USUALLY SEE ME SMILING! LOL. HAHAHAHA

i want ipod touch thank you. and also those stuf got to do when im enlisted 8april.
like you can give me card to remind me its okay to be in the police blablabla.
or special undergarments. or hand made undergarments.
allright!
lol. hahahaa .

and and i was sick on my birthday siaa. what a day !
and i thought i would be missing cesspit and plainsunset and akta angkasa
but i came late yet i watched cesspit and plainsunset.
but this time i was lucky and i borrowed my brother 400D. wohooo for the first time he borrowed me.
okay this 19th birthday is like my best day with my brother lorr.
he like let me do all those things he doesn't let me do or let me borrow on any normal day.
i guess birthday boy have special power!
anyway i think i know what to get him for his birthday. which is 15november.
but the problem is the ordering part laa. fucker. no visa.

piccas next time but i need to do something byeeeeeeeee 1 march.
my last teen years.
nad 6 more days to incubus!!!

48hours

2008-02-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

first i was stress then i was much more stress and frustrated and annoyed.
then i was happy going back. :]
now im becoming more of a information counter rather then i thought i can be a retailer.
and something really shocking and fun happened, this customer need this thank you card she reserved 30. and i have to collect it all the way from funan and she didnt want to come over to the atrium sale but instead i have to go to the taxi stand to let her see which one is nicer and in the end she ask me to pick it up for her yeah she is not an local. she's a americano. aiyoyoyoyo. lol.
k thats was fun working at times. she was so good to me but she didn't gave me tips but instead she left a 10cent.

hmmm anyway on my way to funan i saw shazni working at pastamania!!!
got a free drink from him. i got a lot of drink from almost everyone i know working near my area.
erin is on my top list! haah
followed by shazni and my other colleague, but why drinks? why not food?!!! haha no laa im not a free loader k thanks...
anyway 48more hours!!!
and tomorrow night MM4. halermak!baik kaper.
kk mau tido. besok overnight lagi.

It's too late to make amends

2008-02-25T23:37:00.000-08:00

i died when im working.
i revived back when its time to go back.
i got a seat finally on the way home bus 63.
i think its because i pay 1.30$ instead od tapping out 89cents.
hmmm money really says/book it all nowadays.

tomorrow im gonna repeat the same thing i have just say.
hopefully someone will meet me during my lunch break. hopefully.
ppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp

ing

2008-02-22T23:58:00.000-08:00

as usual, work that is.
i've calculate my pay, while i'm working and my supervisor is there watching and i could reply "ohh, im calculating my pay!" then a 2sec silence. She must have told gary that's my manager, but fuck it when gary is okay to me.

so i calculate my pay from 24jan which is the first day till 29thfeb, round off about $1 105.35
thats what i calculate according to my hours of working. I JUST CAN'T WAIT TILL 15MARCH. that is my pay day and also i'm going to KL on that day. shit shit shit ya ya ya.

i have not made my list, yet i'm giving my mum 400? nah 200 should be enough, i wanna fly to hong kong before 8april. saw at the atrium having an offer package to HK. fr$486 4D3N, wanna come?
i think im not spending it right with the hard earn money, maybe i should treat my friends before i fly away, maybe i can bring them along uhh... what an idea. that shall be into my "list".

fucking vein like those girls with shopping list or whatever list,
it's been a long time since i went out due too transportation fares
heart-breaking too see those numbers deducted.
now i'm worried and nervous each time i got up the bus, not like those ol time when i just aboard the bus sleeping drooling no worries. now i can't even sleep on the bus which i did just now and i miss my stop. 4 stop away but never mind been a while since i walk walk walk ....

atrium

2008-02-20T22:26:00.000-08:00

i knew it i didn't get all from the above.
ahh fuck it, appeal and results by 31march.
hopefully!

you may not understand

2008-02-17T23:41:00.000-08:00

depression walk alone.
i don't know what i have been told.
but really seeing is believing.
this lead to almost everything
goodbye, nice to know you.

just be close so you can get what you get.
you used me as a bait
now you get what you want
you left me alone stranded in this fucking island.
this island that make people pay once they got out of the house
EVEN in your house.
this is not a lyric but this is my words

anxiously, admired, happy, thrilled
all i could express now was words.
empty words.
you may not understand what i'm trying to write here.
but i do,
i'm going tight this month real tight
like one after one things i gave high hopes for
but i was wrong or they turned my back.
happily you walk without knowing the feeling i had.
"it's okay"-azri soft spoken to himself.

i will ask for forgiveness
for what i had done or nothing.
then came another big problem
money,
totally broke, i kind ask more from my dearest mum
she has to pay all those bills OVERDUE bills.
and to typed overdue.
i got a overdue payment from the national library from last year.

trouble i sense.
BT,MA,BFP,RT
i want to have fun before my time is up

8April is the date to remember.
1March is the date to remember too.

important bjork!!!

2008-02-14T23:59:00.001-08:00

A very normal day just lots of holding hand if you know what i meant.
very random yet funny at times with erin,syirr,raymond
bumped into ocean 3 member, carl and fajar. those were the early 2008 party i went with them house crashing house crash almost everything man.

anyway it was valentine's day. weird eyes as i walk thru tat sliding door at aljunied stop. YEAP! like im all alone and everywhere there is couple, im alone meeting syirr at her work's place. but don need to look at me like that what..
fuck uh valentine's day must uhh celebrate, what happened to hari raya haji all those muslim calendar, prophet muhammad birthday all where is that celebration. ya i know i drink and stuff but still that's my religion even those who thinks religion is depression or against it, then i have no beef with them, but those out there.. fuck uhh wear tudung kiss here and there making your DIY porn no wonder world's gonna end at 2012 december 21. but i don't believe in that only looking out for the SIGNS.

anyway i was hoping i could be sick on this saturday, im working full shift on saturday!! and weekend trip is on the day i work. hopefully i can come out with something, other then that i think im thankful this 17th feb im not working, gig at arts house. woohoo

kk and and HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRANDON BOYD
its his birhday when i was looking at his publish art book. 2 volumes maybe i could get that for someone after all those gifts __ gave me. yeah.
and bjork if you are reading this, come to Singapore before 8april.

anyone?

2008-02-13T11:06:00.000-08:00

YOYOYOYO...... PRO YO-YO!
wohooooooo WHOO WO-WO!

HAHAHA, okay never been update for quite some time due too work and also im just too lazy man...
work is tiring just the standing other than that its fine and fun too see people from all over the country be it male female. and also i can "wash my eye" HAHA? i've seen alot of passer-by i know off walk thru the TIME.

kk update

first gigs

MAKING HARDCORE DIY AGAIN
The Substation Guinness Theater
22 March // Saturday
4pm - 10pm!

Featuring

SLUTET (distort hardcore disorder!)
SUBTLE REVENGE (singlong circlepits!)
DISTORTED KIDS (neu wave metallic hc!)
RECOVER (old school singalong hc!)
STAND STRONG (youth crew as you!)
PAZAHORA (grim melodic crust hc!)
REALIZE (new school hardcore!)
STAMPEDE (rapcore represents!)
VOCES INOCENTES (thrashcore distort!)
ZAINICHI (emoviolence!)
YOGYAKARTA (happy happy hardcore!)

2nd gig

CB! line-up all my fucking type siak only by storm,after the sky. The rest are what i listen to daily woohoooo.must go must go.
anyone? then bring miles away to singapore as they will be playing at YOUTH PARK 16 march.
anyone wanna tag?

haha okay i think that should be it.
im too lazy to update on my life instead of updating gigs.
haha. i really have no life la.
you wanna know? or should i just write down.
okay here is the timing of my schedule

AM - 10am till 630pm
PM - 130pm till 930pm (weekdays)
PM(friday) - 2pm till 10pm ( friday)
FULL - would be 10am till 10pm

if AM shift i still have time to wonder off. but not PM shift im a PM shift regular. after 20th feb im gonna have a long break as its gonna renovate and the are going down to atrium sale as in like sale in the shopping mall without a shop uhhh uhh..
but only 2 workers needed, i guess i won't be needed as told by the manager.
and fuck he told me this was a cut of pay!! FUCK! i hate this type of cut off pay thingy man.
just make you feel like you have been working for long time and the pay days is on the 15th of each month damnnnn!

kkkk tomorrow valentine's day uhh i want to go do something to my pants and then we shall see who i wanna call to go out just go out uhhh.. no heavy meals or whatever laa. hmmm who who?
anyone?

renot.

2008-02-01T22:11:00.000-08:00

my brother bought the new dvd.i guess i don't to fork out any money most of the dvds are his hard earn money and i watch it over and over again..
really jealous with incubus live show. amazing yet powerful.
NOW I CAN'T WAIT FOR 7MARCH!!
BUT FIRST I WANNA CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY ON THE 1MARCH!!
AHA. MY LAST YEAR BEING A nineTEEN!!!!

oh and a tragic thing happend after i got back from work. just behind my block someone died inside a white Mitsubishi van. KPO wannabe with my brother went down wanna see what happened or wanna know what happened but then we never know most of the on-lookers are chinese and we were like the only malay.
i felt awkward and also, now there's 3 patrol cars, investigating. im just curious did he died inside the van. but the got 1 suspect i think he's on the way to hell. hahahah
okay enough of that.
incubus!!!!!!

and fuck. its saturday, and im working FULL SHIFT tomorrow
my knee are barely holding up my body weight, shoe's getting more holes, and also back hurts.
and and and on top of that its so cold at my work place
oh and times marina is going to have a NEW LOOK soon 2 weeks renovation.
whooo.

25%

2008-01-27T23:42:00.000-08:00

Now i really can you use the term call "work". most of the time now im not going out instead of working and also i was very tempted to see my friends hanging out, but come to think again i can meet them on my off day but work is much more important as in the money and experience wise la.. so today was the 3 day of working i learnt alot about retail managements etc etc...

AND I HAVE BEEN READING BOOKS.
lol. first of all i read the book broken english,maxim,FHM, those men's health jut browsing thru when comes to my 1 hour break...come to think again its good working at times book store, you learnt so much just sitting down at the counter.
oh im doing cashing this few days 1 of my customers i know was sab from friendster :P
the other was bloody rejects vocalist-yismut and also eligi for euliza vocalist.

thats all. i guess there's alot more to come... i got 25% of everything i guess im going to start reading from scrap mannn.. i bought this jardhead, its a war and military subject. i haven't been reading it man. no time for me..

now im going to sleep but before that i need to remind myself to go to plaza sinapura TIMES, to collect som books for the customers that order thru me.. see how good i am using my own EZLINK money just to traveerl thru and fro PLAZA SING AND MARINA SQUARE. wait its just 1 stop away if i take the mrt. why do i have complaint about right... dooh! and today money short of 19.60$$
OH MYYYYYYYY.
but everyones is responsible for it but im in-charge. better be vigilant next time uhh eh..

you might been hurt BEY!

2008-01-21T17:19:00.000-08:00

* HELL YEAH! and after this 8April *

Another upcoming gig, MILES AWAY from AUSTRALIA and also FC FIVE from JAPAN
ticket and place TBA

Its official, i quit working at toy'r'us.
1st of all if you plan working on toy'r'us be sure you are a female its the easiest way just sitting down at the cashier site or gift wrapping, isn't that easy. but for my case. hahaha
i had to be in-charge of girls world that is barbie's doll and baby section.
every 3 of 5 minutes dolls on floor or whatnot. and also the reason i quit is because of this particular supervisor.
i just can't wok in the environment with lots of plybians wannabe or ex-plybians and those "answer not more then 2words of old and action staff".
fuck uh, cruel world i guess. hahaha.
this morning i received a call from TIMES bookstore. woohoo and i'm starting work with maii the maknenek. eh maii working on friday where else im working full-shift on thursday...
i can't wait to work at a bookstore. kinda cool.. not that cool uh azri work at times like eh i don read book that much. but when i come to mood of reading...

oh ya tomorrow is feezah's project shooting day. im becoming a indian medium. haha just for her sake uh feezah!!!
and i have to find an outfit like indiam medium.. hmmm sari? hahahahaha
i donno laa. go do research. ahah go google.com search indian medium. HAAHHAAHAHA.
okay okay .
super bored and i slept at 6am after that woke up 10am++ just to wait for the times pple to call. but they call me around 3. hahahaha
thanks la anyway. haha now i can't sleep back. cause I KEEP THINKING ABOUT MY CONTACT LENS!!!!
one of the side is like irritating and i mysef donno which is right and which is for left.
sooo noob sia. fuck.and also i can't differentiate the correct side and the wrong side.
ah fuck! i think im going to see that optician again man. something is wrong !!!

bjork live at JAKARTA

selamat hari jadi ibuku

2008-01-17T23:59:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 54th BIRTHDAY MUM!!!
she's 54 this year and im 19.
the best mum i could have although there is up and down.
1 best lady in the world must be her. she who carry me around when im about to see the world. i was thinking i live with her for 19years already. no! i didn't count the day and month when i was in her womb. i'm just glad she is still alive till this date having her by my side is the fondest and yet calms me down when my heart jumps.

when can i work and ask her TO STOP WORKING. really sad to see her coming out pocket money and going out to work at 10:30pm seeing that just make another hate on my fucking dad, he is not fit to be called as a dad. FUCK OFF! yeah see my middle finger. guess what, my aunt (father's sister) called me and ask me how i and my siblings doing these year and replied okay, im obviously waiting for NS, brother sign on with cisco, and last my sister is doing her last year in seconday taking N level. she ask how my mum is. and i wanted to say "she is working hard for me and my other sibling and also why care about her when you pple(father side) thinks my mum doesn't suits ur brother(my "dad")". but instead i reply she is working still supporting my family, then she say "ur father is really really ill. don't you wanna visit him." i paused for a second and didn't want to answer. she called my name. and response "he still alive? and still at living at petir road blk 402?" ohh ohkay. i will visit him.. and i say i needed to go.

haha. at first i thought it was bad. but fuck yeah he deserve that and all his family side. im 19 now i can think and i know who is right and wrong. i have my own eyes and my own ears. till now i didnt even visit him at his house apparently my house too. so if he is dead that's my property! WOOHOO! lol.

yeah. im just sick when you guys say my father name. it really hurts but i try to keep it all in my heart and smile. because of him my school fees is so expensive, not that im proud it. who wants to be proud of it when you are single-parent. my mums not that rich, and school fees about 100+ and fucking dead dad didnt want to give us money every month!
this is my story. so you guys who like disturbing me indian and also ali,thats my father name... you can see the sadness or my anger yet quite face. you know what i think off. lots of stuff i could remember of him.

yeah fuck off. i don't want to be a evil dad like my dad. he even abuse me before when i was like crying only its like when i was only 2yrs old. imagine he threw me to the couch and my mum was there she saved me from being rebound off the couch to the floor if not i think i'm crazy by now of worse i wont't have meet you guys or short DEAD!. yeah a slight hit to the brain when you are baby could cause dead. read the newspaper. yeah...

so this is about my dad. actually i wanted to wish my mum her 54th birthday when i suddenly talk about this.
FUCK FUCKFUCK.

now i just have to wait till my first pay working as toys'r'us. im starting on my mum's birthday. OMG!!!
then i can remember when i start my work usually i don't remember. but since im starting when its on my mum's birthday i can of course remember it with pride.

okay. i got my contact lens. and there's these hot lady at the counter rubbing my hand and also teaches me ow to use the lens. ahaha....
rubbing as in teaching how to rinse the lens or so. don think so like dirty minded la blogspot. hahahaha
okok
tomorrow's first day. big impression not carrying balls. :>

here

2008-01-16T23:34:00.000-08:00

i donno why i can't upload pictures.
everytime i want to upload sure there;s a Internet fault or either im too lazy or im too tired or or im late and anyhow write in entry. haha. EH MY PROBLEM UH!
haaahaha. today seriously waste of time at toy"r"us. they ask to come just to inform about the work pay and the system how they run the "best toys store ever" or something like that. and i had fun with these to clique of mine aziee and maii... they are so over when talking about stuff like taxi fare, and they will go on talking about it when the fire starter was me and i had to listen. ahahha not that i uh uh kan uhh. but sometimes they are so funny. hahaha.
a day i could bring fondest memories. lol. one with life girl another with no life girl. hahaha.
guess who. i give you free toy. LOL.

then after visit harold from mt. alvernia hospital. a private hospital near newton circus and MacRitche reservoir.
meet paat and epull and bob at toa payoh interchange.
bought those cheap poker cards and play till 11+ pathetic life sia.. eh! before that we play a game of pool.
and jackie was there, i truly miss him as a guitarist man. fuck it.
yeah. tomorrow i will be collecting my contact lens at parkway parade.
saper nak ikot!!!!!
who want to follow me. but before that.
i need to top-up my ez-link. now i know how it feel using adult fare. and my heart really burns comes to the deduction part. wahlaueh.
fuck you la 7cents also wanna count. no more cents uh!?!!!!

no point talking about this. cause my blog is not read by prime minister or LTA or whoever is so big and so can change the rules and laws of singapore
in fact i donno who are my reader. and i don fucking care. ha. true true this is my life i write this for the sake of tiring writing entrie from the ol ol skool way. yeah pen and a book. hahaha.
i know emo? hah no. this is to improve your memory and also your english and i want share my life with my love ones if im married with kids. i will let them read. only them but not who you know i know then they know im going to end here.

job secure

2008-01-15T23:56:00.000-08:00

since when i say i want to quit?
haha. no i was just enjoying my time while i can. i have not been at home for days.
and hangingover for the past 4days after 3 days of air nakal.
hahah. and house party was truly "FUN" with billy the dog drinking and acting stupider then human(when drunk)

i treat home like hotel to me. i bath,change and went out again. i feel so wrong. now im a change man, today went out with aziee and maii looking for work turn's out we went any shop that is big and cool enough to get the job and keep asking "excuse me, do you have a job vacancies."
haha after several time i don't feel shy after all. you don't get the job if you are SHY am i right.
seee seeee.. hahaha.
okay so hopefully i got all the job. hahaha cause i want to seee
BJORK LIVE AT JAKARTA
PARKWAY DRIVE LIVE AT MALAYSIA (TBA)
23RD MALAYSIA GIG
INCUBUS GIG

all except for bjork occurred on the month of my birthday month's that MARCH and my birthday is just the start of the month. if you can't guess then i don't know what to say uhhh...
i really really need work and money and pants and shirt. those are in my wardrobe are non-wearable or not in use. haha.
kk
tomorrow interview for toy"ur"us.
haha hopefully i can get it. hah bye uhh..

brothers day out.

2008-01-08T23:09:00.000-08:00

hi my name is azri and im gonna save the world.
its january 8. time fly very fast like faster then hydroplane(what hydroplane?)
day one of the start of loneliness and i feel pain at my back and also on my ass, yeah i have been at home for only 1 day and it feels like 29 days without going out.
lucky my brother ask me out today. its BROTHERS DAY OUT!! -_-

went to plaza singapura plaza at you know where, bought the ticket for INCUBUS WOOHOO
but he didn't it for me though. he bought 2 ticket for himself and herself... not for myself. ???
he is buying for his gf and himself la and also me, but he is buying for me next month i think so. lets just wait and see.
hopefully i wanna tag along cause its incubus used to see them live at dvd now its my turn to see them and also i wanna enjoy till 8 april. yes its coming real soon ah fuck!

okay i wanna enjoy the sound of heavy downpour at my hometown.

and brothet bought canon 400D. ohhhhhh.. hhehehe *RUB HAND*
lol. and i fee lonely without my friends. haiya why must they go to school why uhhh..

ouch.

2008-01-01T21:04:00.000-08:00

best day of 2007.
30th & 31 December... there was no more grief toward them.
we start talking like there was nothing wrong. and fucking yes!
wohooooo

START A NEW THIS 2008.
FUCK THOSE OLDIES THAT GIVES WRONG ADVISE.
WE ARE HERE TO SET IT BACK. AND KICK YOU OUT.
YEAH THATS RIGHT.
WE(YOUNGER GENERATION) KEEP OUR HANDS TOGETHER AND NEVER LET GO.

eh cool uh. can make a lyrics.
fucking-a.
lol. hahahahaha.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaappyyyy neeww yearrrrrr.
hahaha.

haaaaaaaa

2007-12-27T21:10:00.000-08:00

NO WONDER THERE'S WAR. :P
JUST BECAUSE YOU SPELLED IT WRONGLY.
LOL.

oheyy. life's becoming much more lonely then ever. now i realize its just text that making all this promises. but we didn't even met. those word come out from you are all lying i guess.
i need to move on from now there's no point thinking about all this when ITS OVER. I'm looking ahead for 2008, new year = new friends? hopefully and new band fucking my style im going to bring that band up. Anyway fuck those 2 face bastard fuck you and fuck your mother(this is not a dedication to anyone, DON'T FUCKING JUMP TO CONCLUSION.)

AH FUCK THAT, LOOK'S LIKE MUCH MORE BANDS FROM MY WISH LIST ARE COMING.

INCUBUS
DREAM THEATER
BJORK (JAKARTA)
MILES AWAY
PARKWAY DRIVE (KL)

i'm in need of work. those i know already gotten themselves work.
not me, im still flipping and looking under classified session though...

and sibs, thanks for all the concern. i can count on you. if you want a bf, im here. haha

and.

2007-12-26T22:26:00.000-08:00

Bjork - Hyperballad

seeing her live at youtube is enough and rumours have been spreading, yupp.. she is touring near singapore which is INDONESIA. woohoo.
but its rumours. you know sometimes is true and not. but INCUBUS IS REALLY COMING TO SINGAPORE. fuck yeah. and also i'm eager which local band's gonna do the opening act. hmmm.
lets wait and see...

We live on a mountain
Right at the top
There's a beautiful view
From the top of the mountain
Every morning I walk towards the edge
And throw little things off
Like:
Car parts, bottles and cutlery
Or whatever I find lying around

It's become a habit
A way
To start the day

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

It's early morning
No one is awake
I'm back at my cliff
Still throwing things off
I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow with my eyes 'til they crash
Imagine what my body would sound like
Slamming against those rocks

When it lands
Will my eyes
Be closed or open?

I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier

To be safe up here with you

sing in azri

2007-12-24T23:30:00.000-08:00

Tiring day from "holiday", i call this holiday a HELLiday. Some Aunt of Mine are so super KIASU i just can't stand them when they are at the KIASU mode, other then that i'm okay with it. I thought i could relax my mind where my aunt leaves, she a local there. Over there i was treated more like "HELPING HANDS" or should i say more like a SERVANT. But at least i got to bond with my mum and my sis and also my lil cousins, these people make me think to stay longer from Friday and i reach Singapore Monday morning around 10AM.

here's a story about SYIRR, i met her at STARBUCKS;RAFFLES. bring along my laptop. thanks syirr for the laughing moments.. aha. i won't forget the part where she ask me where am i taking my bus and i response confidently "near the fire" supposed to answered near fire station and there she goes laughing at me. wahhh. and i got to laugh at her back when i saw the FULL MOON and she goes im evolving im a NOBLE WOLF and she shakes her heads off and laugh at her own jokes. lol. funny moment... awwww. And because of her i made new friends, erin was like friendly type not like what i think off when i heard her voice over the phone. both of them was hitting the laptop's keyboard like they own it, fighting over some conversation about BOOBS. I was rather closing my ears and pretend i didn't hear anything. Indeed a best way to have my Christmas eve spent at starbucks and a stroll down town area, syahirah awie or whatever it is. thanks for the time and the laughing moments, best moments of my Christmas's eve. Oh and she was wearing a blue light Skirt for the first time i saw a skirt on her, hahahhahahahahahahahahahahah okay daaa.

and and i thought i would be alone at home while my friends have fun BUT syirr delete the word alone from my head. THANKS LAA.

sign off azri.

2007-12-20T05:15:00.000-08:00

guess im the "red lace" and Raymond's on the "yellow lace"
lol, out of sudden he apologies to me, i know i left the band but doesn't meant i will leave you
guys too, if that rumors you have heard thats all bullshit. hmmm.
its going to be 5am soon. and later on i'm heading to my aunt's place for the festive hari raya aidil adha. the slaughter kambing.!! eh kambing or lembu? hahahha im blurred myself.
anway i made friends with X, after so long since we chat. though we are in the same school different course. but still im happy X talked to me. laugh alot and stuff. just don't want to see X pissed off, that would be the last time i see X pissed off, so burok siak. lol.
and another angel from heaven is CHANEL! i don't know if she is reading this,
"curiosity breeds contempt."-Mr chin, my ex secondary school teacher
till now i still can remember what he says, its all in my mind.
anyway, chanel told me she was curious weather im okay or not when she saws my nick.
here's my nick "i lost few "brothers/friend" during a battle. and learn not to JUMP INTO CONCLUSION each time you're not sure off!!!!!!!!!!!"
she care enough to console and share some of her bad experience with me.
THANKS ALOT CHANEL. it really helps, if she were to be my girlfriend... life would be much more easier for me and for her i guess. hahaha. okay .
countdown for my days. 3 months around there? hhahahh oh
yeah i hack into the school system, i guess almost all my classmate did it too, so blame all. we hack in the system just to see our final GPA scores! oh and i score a perfect 1.417. perfect man
haahha -_-'''
actually i must get at least 4 to really secure my place at polytechnic, and 3 so teachers will look up to you. but i guess hey its my last exam. ahaahahahhahahahaha
hacking care was in my dictionary i guess. hahaha lol. shit.

pass 5am now and still i have not yet sleep. brothers on the guitar fucking dillinger escape plan.
and guess what
INCUBUS COMING TO TOWN, AND IN THE MONTH OF MARCH, he is paying the ticket for me and her gfs. wohooo. another free concert from him. first was funeral for a friend. oh my godd. im happy. really happy . okayy wait till

hi

2007-12-19T19:25:00.000-08:00

breaking up a band is like breaking up a girlfriend.

2007-12-18T23:28:00.000-08:00

1.417 ----------> final GPA.

ah fuck, that's my final GPA.
from 2 pointer drop to 1.9 then now
ahh fuck it.

2007-12-17T22:05:00.000-08:00

i need JOB...
JOB SEEKING = HIDE AND SEEK

thanks

It's too late to make amends

2007-12-17T20:38:00.000-08:00

Can't trust no one, for a life of my own, I'll destroy motherfuckers on their so called throne. nobody's innocent, that's just a big lie. I'll look out for my boys till the day I fucking die. You gotta look out for you and yours, and when the motherfuckers step, you gotta just cause. Destroy your enemies or they'll do the same to you, so watch your back and keep it raw, or you'll be through. So much shit, you gotta choose, stake your claim then make your move.

Welcome to my world, a labrynth of death and deceit. I've been on the frontline of the streets. Down and dirty, that's how I get did it the hardway, earned my respect. Use my negative energy to force my ways, all I know is that it passes the pain. Society's weight on my shoulders, criminal minded, can't control it. I do the things I can't explain, take my pride to the grave.

Your attitude, it sickens me, I'll turn away and let you bleed, see the other side of the gemini.

from the start i know i would not trust you. its A FUCKING OKAY NOT TO TALK TO ME OR DON'T TRUST ME. You lie to me cry to me Bitch you cross me now I gotta kill ya.

Can't stand that I won't leave, how did this come to be, you can't get rid of me because we run this scene. Who are you? Who are you? Cause I know what I'll do. Who are you? To think that I'll bow to you.

And I won't change because of what they say. I choose to live my life this way and I won't change no matter what they think I choose to live my life my choice my game.

And I'm tired of your face, the one you love to hate, all I want, money, fame, that's how I play this game. Live, my life, day by day. Grill's busted, that's o.k. there's only one thing to do.

I'm talking to you, it doesn't matter what I do I've got nothing to prove, and if you challenge you will lose. You're going to lose. Try to stop me, you're a joke. Want me to leave but I won't go. Got the facts, in your face, step into this hardcore graze. Boots a d braces busted faces dirty deed done dirt cheep. We're the ones on the attack. Old school, coming back.

bff stab bff right infront

2007-12-14T23:49:00.000-08:00

anxiety.
she gives me only her name on friendster but not her number nor her email address. we only got to contact after confirmation she wears a braces.hahaha lol.
making me refresh every 2minutes. oohhhh its just a friend. no more...

hmmm this week i felt so much different. i don't know, but maybe hands keep pushing.
whatever it is i must get to know the truth. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
girls girls girls. lol. making me a headache, for once the come and later on they will go for like a month why? ahhh... this is not dear diary but im writing the fact. when they are really many "fishes" in the pond none really look at my bait but after few months they tend to go really near the bait smelling the bait.
ahahaha.

okay so i have been out from home for like since Saturday till Thursday afternoon. miss my mum though and my bed. hahah.

first 3dats 2night i spend mostly at kl and going back to island Singapore.
the gig there was awesome i stage dive for the first time. and my room mate for the first night was rico and azura. but azura finds us boring but in the end i and rico was laughing till 4am ++
we were making fun of the tv shows and making our own subtitle following the actors reaction .lol.

kkkkkkkk. bye.
hahaha

this is all i have

2007-12-13T18:31:00.000-08:00

it's been so long since it's rained this hard, so i'll drive with the windows down to remember how it felt to feel alive. the sky starts to clear as i'm passing by your house for the second time again, you're still away...and i'm still here. how long has it been since you've been at home with me? i'm trying to hold on, but i'm just keeping you away. you said 'i'm still standing, i'm just looking for a reason.' i'm standing right here. but i'm holding on too tight, you're looking right through me...or do you feel me at all? and this will never be enough, but if you're going down- this is all i have, just fucking take it. this is all i am, it's always been for you. choke and break and drown and steal. take it all again. just say you'll never leave. just never leave

KCIS

2007-12-05T22:03:00.000-08:00

its december 5, and still not down well. 3 days down with fever and throats becoming thinner and thinner favourite food turns back for me. i can"t even swallow any of my delicious food. and worse on this day is my mum is not felling so good either. oohhhh well, and i have to go buy food when is freezing out there its like im at the north pole. every step i lay its gets to my head and thus headache. 4 people ask me out today, one of which is "spanner boy" , "every man for himself" , "man toyak" and "mondo". haha obviously these are key words. im disguising them for some reason.

while im typing the more my stomach is making sound. headache is getting worse pills i swallow doesn't do good in fact makes me more ill. im going to have another visit to the doctor. oh fever is running high hopefully i can make it for the BBH5 show i wouldn't want to miss it. its my first gig ever with another band from another country, oh by the way

i just sat for my last paper at 1Pm sharp.
and i bring good news...

I HAVE FINISH MY 2 YEARS IN THAT BLARDY "HIGH-TECH" ITE SIMEI SCHOOL.
WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... no more smelling human being that never bath for a week or so.

but sadly, i saw this cute girl at cafe 1 just now and just ONCE of all my entire 2 year at that school, she smile at me but i was dumb enough not to smile back and that cute girl was my first X back at primary school.. ahahah yes how lovely when we used to take the same bus to school but we didn't sit together, but we talk on the phone and we hang around chai chee.. fondest memories. oh my. i will never ever gonna see her but but i see her around my estate now which is McPherson. i think she is stalking me where ever i go she is always there. but i never get to talk to her. ahhhh!
its okay let that be a lesson to me. hopefullly i will get to talk to her,

now off to movie marathon...

personal best

2007-12-04T23:05:00.000-08:00

I have been at home resting for 2 days after the marathon on 2nd December which is on Sunday.
A tiring run, well not that tiring just that i have not been running for like since i was primary school. And the result came out, yes yes! ahah. i print screen bacause i want it memorable as this is my first time joining this event.
oh by the way the winner of my division clock in 0:34:43!!! imagine 34 mins for 10km.
oh he is from nepal. kumar rai.
how can they get so fast?
when i clock in at 1:08:38

*this is the timing. start at 7:15 AM but i start crossing the start line at 7:25 AM*
*imagine 2162 finishers behind*

*good to have all this record, lol. *

*the yellow arrows shows the last runner of my division when i cross the finish line*

*my location when my division winner finished. all because of the baggage deposit if not i might be 2nd or 3rd :P*

*sadly thats where i was when all the position were taken up.*

at least i did my best for my first time. next running event i want to do my best and clock in better than this. haha for sure i will and i think don't need a shoe so much expensive i was using this bata shoe. and i clock in at 1:08:38. my personal best.

and now im down with high fever and stomach ache and headache. damnnnn..
tomorrow is my paper for SNA module, i have not been studying but hopefully luck is on my side.
please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha
okay i better eat something and watch some movie before going to bed and medicine too.
haha take care.

timed

2007-12-02T19:48:00.000-08:00

finally i 2 most important task in my life have done it with flying colours. first of all was the gig held at Bukit Batok CC, although there was some cock-ups.
but for sure i myself enjoy it.. and of course its good to play alongside with the veteran yes like outofsight,realize,shadows, and those we used to play with.
i got home around 11+ and checking my emails and stuff, getting ready for my 10km the next morning. all geared up and actually it feels good to run on road and by the time i was at starting point. hahahaha. there was like 40,000 runner. never mind. i aim for my personal best time as this is my second time participating. i think doing stuff like is healthy but really great tracks. i wonder how ashar(ERIS vocalist) could took up the challenge for the 42km. i talk to him on the net asking him how was 42km.
ahahah guess what he say was his leg are about to fall off. imagine that, hah i was laughing at him, and this was his 2nd time. not bad timed at 6hours +

oh my time clocked at 1hour 39mins, and and after the race i was sight seeing a lil bit only myself know.
hahaa lol. now for me to rest and 2 more days to SNA exam and im off from ITE.
wohoo and finding a job till i got my results.

he/heman

2007-11-27T21:37:00.000-08:00

haaa. final report done
and i just collect my goodies beg for the marathon running 10km on 2nd December free come bring ur skate scooter and skate along side with me and cheer me on. ahaha lol.
okay new band started jamming and like we play so many cover and 2 original. this band is like 10 years old wahhh okay

im keep on thinking about studies and deferment now.
giving me a head burst and paracetamol is like sweet now.

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2007-11-24T22:14:00.000-08:00

finally the 4 track are up.
check it out on ebay. ahaha NO
click here
i spent my saturday afternoon with raymond and syirr talking about things pop out from our brain. and went straight to beats for the recording and finally my stress level went down. now buttons and exams and gigs and marathon. and
come for this gig. we will be selling our demos 4 tracks at $3 okayy. can.
oh and i would like to take this opportunity to thank feezah for her hardwork! thanks babe! you the best. and also yvonne for the time to come jamming even its stuffy and noisy. but still she come and support. thanks alot and also my brother raymond,ah tank and hafiz and hanif and semut thanks for taking your time to be with us and the extra sing-along.!!!
i love this pple.

TGIF

2007-11-23T17:54:00.000-08:00

today i woke up late. i won't get to see my irritating sister for 1 week cause she is on the plane to VIETNAM!
WOHOOOOOOOO!!!! hhappy happy dinsum lol cause she is not around but kinda sad cause i can't disturb anyone. lol.

but never mind i'm all prepared just wish her safe there and safe coming home with souvenirs!!
hahhah lol. today jamming and photo shot for the band. and im done cleaning my house. wohooo

ohhhh. and i forgot to wake up for school again. its like every Friday i won't come at all. ahahahhahahaha

TGIF

2007-11-23T05:54:00.000-08:00

just strive

2007-11-22T21:59:00.000-08:00

final year report done, everything done. now left 1 more module and I'm out of It's The End school. haha.
and after that i have no plan. I'm thinking i should continue study higher nitec or just go be a police? hmmmmmm
or should i be into sports management? or sign up army or police or die or rot at home? or become a hacker? hahahahaaa. thats what i have been thinking shit man.

or or should i just be working part time. and be single? hahah. why single suddenly come out sia lol. okay okay now i have to focus on my SNA module and gigs upcoming and MARATHON!!
oh shit i totally forgot about the marathon, how could i. its on the 2nd december damn it and i only run last 3 weeks around my estate for the 10 minutes i ran like i was like errr out of breath? haha but the lecturer seays the first 10 minute is the important part. if you can't continue or you are already can't take it that means you can run much more. but i still continue....

struggling with bands. recording and stuff
gigs 1st & 7th december
marathon
studies. 5 december final paper
8 december KL bridging ocean.

okay well planned out. i guess. hmmmmm

fuck

2007-11-21T23:17:00.000-08:00

life's suck at this time, I'm so fucked up..
i have a lot of things i have to accomplished and done.
like for example i didn't have time to study for my phrase test just now and guess i have great friends who give me wrongs answer!!! but i managed to get some pass though. another problem is that fucking band giving me a headache man. song song song covers cover and session and i have no time man. exam is just around the corner. i have been to the debarment list every day when i came for school. I'm scared shit when it appears PL0601R BUT my class is PL0601S!!!
ahah. its like a daily routine for me to check my name. aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

now is November 21 2007
i have to hand in my soft and hard copy for my final year report on 22nd November.
i have a test on this Friday that would be 23rd November.
i have a session and jamming. that would also be on 22nd and 23rd of November
and recording for demo would be on Saturday.
i don think i can take it man. so fuck up. people around me are doing so well when i"m not.

now what i can think is that i want to play COD4.!!!
and and i want to have a drink session.
i"m waiting for 5december and i'm gone. no shit no lappie around and no document fucks and no smelly classmate no more!!!! woohooo

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2007-11-18T22:36:00.000-08:00

already i can't get my fingers on dunkin doughnuts. and now look at that tagboard people start talking about doughnuts WAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and most of the time im in front on the computer. I WILL BE DAMN HUNGRY!
NOW IM HUNGRY
and i must start saving money for recording and stuff. god damn it my i don get to set my foot on jb for the 8th december performance. damn... never mind. okay
OKAY SEE THIS:

*FOR MINORITY OUTBURST IM SELLING PRE-TIX AT 8*
colour at blue = band i intro that is awesome.
red=important noticed.
Minority Outburst

Venue: Bukit Batok CC
Date: 01.12.2007 (Saturday)
Time: 1pm Till Late
Ticket: $10 (At The Door)

Band Lineup:

Bloodbath Massacre
Damnation In Enigma
Every Rage I Seek
Murder For Revenge
Out Of Sight
Shadows Embrace
Vulgate Dogmas
Distorted Kids
Breaking Point
Ebony's Call
Jennifer Deathwish
Odds Of Stella
Ragdoll Epilogue
Someone Murdered Cupid
Realize

Poster Link:

----------- -------------------- -------------------- -------------------- -----

BOUND BY HONOUR 5!! (updated)
7TH DECEMBER @ REDBAR..
$8 PER ENTRY.
2PM-9PM

OPENING ACTS:
DISTORTED KIDS
FearInTheEnemy (FITE)

END OF AGE(indo)
ELEGY FOR EULIZA(sin)
DEAD EYES GLOW(msia)
TAKE DOWN(indo)
AFTER THE SKY (sin)
END OF AGE(indo)
BLOODY REJECTS (sin)
INCARNATION ( msia)
TSA (philipines)
4SIDES (sin)

*SPECIAL GUEST BAND:
THE BOIS (lion city skinheads!!!)

THIS GIG IS BROUGHT TO YOU BY THE
FOLLOWINGS:
BOUND BY HONOUR CREW
PROPAGANDA MACHINE
POSITIVE 65
BLOODY REJECTS (the band itself)
FRIDAY CLOTHING

topic.

2007-11-16T22:02:00.000-08:00

Todays topic is "follower"

why do you need to be a follower when you can lead a group. why do you need to follow trend. why do you need to follow someone you adore or you idolize? why?
this question goes out to all. and get this in your fucking mind. IM NOT REFERING TO ANYONE. AND I DON WRITE ABOUT SOMEONE ON THE NET. ITS SISSY, YES! IF YOU DON LIKE THAT PERSON OR HIS ATTITUDE HIS WEARING. CONFRONT HIM AND MAKE RIGHT IN THE FACE. i know humans are don't have the guts to do that cause they have no balls. bunch of pussy wagons.

back to where i start. the question why you need to be a follower when you can stand on your feet and fight for your will or anything.
and again im not refering to anyone. if i do i will include that person name. im not that mysterious guy. hah. so now thats about it cause tomorrow morning im going to eat dunkin doughnuts with ibunda. woohoo going jb. and then meeting hadi all.. so take care. i will continue about the topic follower.

zinboom!

2007-11-15T15:22:00.000-08:00

it's 3 day i have not wake up for school. what is happening to me. damn first of all i shouldn't have skipped school. i have my practical test today and i miss it. how is monday going to be, when i have to answer to me advisor..
i seriously looking forward to 5december that would be my last day in ite and im off. i really hate ITE life its like bored and bored and smoking. that is what i do, teachers are also damn bored when it comes to lecturing moreover they are those 40 and above they tend to talks so much that i can fall asleep or go for a toilet/smoking break. yeah i don care about my studies no more i just want to finish my studies get my certificate and im off to NS.

put that away and here goes the fun part. i made lots of friends like tom from breaking point. he ask me to chill with him when we are 1 block away. we talk about life,band and i learn alot from him when we are only raised by single parent. now i have the energy like the to boost my moral up again, yeah .

and and i first time replied my mum via sms. when she send me those goodnight msg. and i replied her "i love you ibunda., you will always be in my heart. and end off with a kiss."
awwwwwwwwww. ahaha okay i want to bath. now im talking to kingpin yeah i made lots of friends man. breaking point is the friendly bands. they are like cool man beatdown lion city they are tuff guy dok! ahaha. okay this thursday okay we settle. hahaha be prepare im starting the riot.

aaaaaaaaaaa

2007-11-14T23:45:00.000-08:00

Finally i got back what is mine. i got my internet for 4 days i have sleeping disorder i guess. hahahaha. and and and i think i got internet sickness. i can't sleep and my finger keep doing the typing action when im not even in front of the comp. ohh my. ahaha. lol. okay so i went back to facta non verba. it was great to see the campfire and the traditions going on and on and the favourite part was when the 10th or 11th exco set down with the leads and we just sing to what we want to say. really feel happy so so.
okay bye. i want to surf the net and oh ya.

happy 23rd birthday my brother ashek the ash ketchup.
he is in the ol police academy camp right now. Take care.

true bestfriend stab you on the front.

2007-11-03T23:36:00.000-07:00

when i think back what happened. circle of my friends have soon r going to discard me because they have their new "friends" or "bestfriend". or another word im lifeless. well sorry i can't catch up with you guys. yes it felt very weird with you guys. what you talk and such. anyhow this world is just lonely. im a lonely nigga which is for school and outside. im always on my own. i don't really count on you. yes this is nobody i just felt that i need to express myself. so im writing and finally i let it out nice and easy.

next chapter. i finally get out of my comfort zone. after 5 days straight at home, went to me them. really sucks to see your friends having bad relationshit and stuff. just boo down your day with them. whenever i fell like that makes me want to have that girl stab right in the middle.
or either one who or which is at fault. but comes to my mind that sometimes not having a gf is also quite ermmmm lonely? yes i feel that way after much being dumped by her. i felt lonely now. thats true. but i don give a fuck, im going ns soon. i don't need girls. all i need is my
computer and mum and those people keep me laughing and not forgetting sports and music.

now my mind is completely blank, when i was on the way home from raffles place. i had lots of thing to write. but never mind. i better keep it for some other entry when i remember to write.

and if you are reading this. THE TITLE OF THIS BLOG IS MEANINGFULL. THAT IS THE TRUE BESTFRIEND. man if i have that kind of bestfriend that stab right on my back. that person is going to suffer what i suffer trice the pain you stab me.

and by now im pretty much pissed off.

SSERTS

2007-11-01T18:33:00.000-07:00

its November 1. 5 days i have not been blogging. probably i was waiting to use the computer that has all my data and my documents inside, then i can blog. yup. that's right i am using the computer right now.
so a brief through what happened last 5 days.

last Sunday was an hari raya outing with my most close friends since secondary school. and that's like my 2ND day outing only.
Finally after 2 and a half month. my final year project completed. but not the final report and the final presentation. I'm taking a break.
i cut my hair. no pictures.
AND ROCKY IS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME. YES, CAUSE MUMS WANT IT OUT. rocky is my rabbit.

23 more days till i end my life in ITE education and im having lots of stress.

stress!!!

bandS yes bandSSSSSSSS
standard chartered marathon. i have not trained yet.
my FYP project.

this is what on my head every fucking time. if humans are born not to think it would be much easier in a sense. now im thinking 10 years ahead. i wont get any job with my NITEC in info-communication.

arghhhhhh. i need some movies. bye muthafucker who do this 'freelance critics talking back'.
you won't get anything but a taste of my fist.

oh thanks to Internet calms me when my door lock's jammed,
thanks to this

tomorrow is Friday. hopefully i won't rot at home like i did last 5days. call me call me.

route man

2007-10-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

You know with your diploma and stuff can get you more pay.
but with streets smarts you will live longer on your own.
-azri

That what truly matters. i was late for school (as per normal) although i hit the hay very early. school start at 8 when i was sleeping still at 9;45am. on top of that i ran for the bus 154. knowing that i will get to school before my SNA lesson ends and moreover every friday i had module test. mun was raising his voice on me and talking about attendance for the sna.
3% if i absent without valid reason.

So this is what happened. rewind to the part i got to the bus 154. eventually you have to seat back and enjoy the ride to your destination. but no i didn't i was shock and almost all the passenger. the driver was new to the route. he SHOULD HAVE TURN RIGHT to continue the journey INSTEAD he just drive forward and had his slumber face on. most of the passenger drop after they knew the driver lost his way. at that point i wanted and thought of !#%$&! that noob driver instead i bring him back to the road he supposed to drive. we were driving all along ubi road 2. where's the home of police traffic is. and he had a walkie talkie that speaks to the "direction guy." i look at that noob driver he was cursing himself making me like im god. thanking me and still ask me for direction. he ask me to bring him back to the road to eunos mrt. remember azri. CLOCK'S TICKING.

and so i bring him to the route back. he was laughing and thank-ing me at that same time. i tapped my card walk off and catch 28 when i can took a mrt. stupid.

i reached about 10;20am. i was late class was playing games most of them as we are waiting for our advisor to come "fetch" us and brnig us to the Multi-Lecture-hall. yup. and i was hungry took some bite and left for the NYP seminar talking about courses and much more information after our nitec. oh and the lecturer from NYP. one of them was WOW. she is married i think? lol.
so yeah took some pamphlet. OH did i? ermm. no i didnt't bother to took any.

some light refreshment and off to expo bought some BOOK AT THIS MDS BOOKSTORE.
I bought jarhead and thinking should i go some other time? i went with raj and he bought cigarettes we try some new camel stuff and we went back to his house.
oh his computer was like a lan game system.
we were smoking watching PRISON BREAK SEASON 3 EPISODE 5. yeah!
and more games. and games and eat and drinks and then i got back home at 6.

now im bored. cause most of my frens are down working and some... don bother...
i don't want to type too...
i rather watch gangs of new york then watch you message and calling.

2007-10-24T00:19:00.000-07:00

What if I said, I was an accident waiting to happen
Woudl I trip and fall, fall on my words
And would you say, say that I was wrong
My words were out of place, went where I didn't belong

This to me is fact and fiction plays a role
Confusing situations that I can't control
The heart of matter, it beats with pride
Sometimes I wear it on my sleeve, sometimes I keep it inside

And no one said it was gonna be easy
And I'm not afraid to try
And with the odds stacked up against me, I will have to fight
One life, one chance, gotta do it right!!!

And I can't let fate dictate what's best for me
Gotta take control of my own destiny, you can't relate
You think there's no escape but I got everything at stake
Here just to prove you wrong!

And no one said it was gonna be easy
And I'm not afraid to try
And with the odds stacked up against me, I will have to fight
One life, one chance, gotta do it right!!

very meaningful lyrics by h20 - 1 life 1 chance
i can simply sleep. tomorrow i will be starting at 1:30pm. someone is far away gone to her place. oh. i didn't get to meet her or mayb i don't want too?
if i didn't overslept mayb i could see her. oh damn it. mayb she is on the way to australia.

HELP?

2007-10-23T23:57:00.001-07:00

Early morning rush,
breakfast on the table while watching "how clean is your house?"
and off to school. my teacher was a bit shock and at the same time depressed. cause for the first time in the whole semester or her teaching in my class, i never even step on her class at 10am. but i came at 10:57 am. good improvement, not bad.
so yeah. another lectured by my advisor. for the attendance SNA module.
if i didn't turn up 1 more lesson and my name is going to appear on the debarment list. oh, better go. its my 1 more month to go and im free for like 4 months till PA calling me. lol.
okay so then agter that we went to follow raj the lucky busted to tampines mall. bought his sstud and treated us haagen daz. oh. s soothingly nice. with that hot chocolate. then i went home
wah. short and simple. lol. hahahaa

AND I SIMPLY CAN'T PUT ANY VIDEOS EMEBEDED FROM YOUTUBE. CAN SOME BLOGGER HELP?

sold

2007-10-22T20:42:00.000-07:00

*ITS VOLCOM TIME.*
It is indeed DIY. yeah, who cares stickers from HK. and that cheap clock i bought at IKEA = VOLCOM STONE CLOCK.

*3 CANS PER DAY????*
I read the instruction. they ADVISED to drink red bull at least 3 cans per day. jdgaeablag FUCKING CRAZY. hahah but not for those high blood pressure and diabetics

*BIONICLE // KALMAH*
I bought 1 for raymond. this look like those PREDATORS IN THE MOVIE. HAHA.

*LAST BUT NO LEAST.*
A RABBIT! A black half local/dwarf/lionhead but more to local. and born on the 30th july 2007 as typed by debbie. the owner. im adopting rocky 2 only. lol.
yeah why 2 cause i use to have my own rabbit, white and its awesome pet i ever kept.

and now back to my studies. today i came for lan gaming at school thats all and my advisor had to attend some function and we we realase early. but i took my time and i was banging the glass door on bus 65. too sleepy i guess. oh i need to sleep.

pooof ah pooof.

2007-10-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY RAYMOND.
MAY YOU SUCCEED IN LIFE, AND GET ATTACHED? HAHA.
so today i didn't woke up for school. haha damn it! i'm supposed to take an important test that will determinate my life, nah. im dead when school's on monday.
i really can't stand my advisor threatening me to call my mum about my attendance and the test. if he wants to call, i don give a damn cause i make a deal with my mum. ahhh.
so yeah fuck off. and im starting to like have this great "PITURE COMMENT" conversation. lol. her name is dara. yes im not that secretive. so yeah she's cool with those piercing. i kept disturbing her on her chachat lips and mouth. chachat = ermmm disable? disfigured? ahahha. and and erm. oh i written in before this post. and i stil can't believe she is like that. just walk away when the movie's about to start. damn if thats my money i will tear that movie and i will tear her. ah. im not that fierce ah can ornot.? chinese typers. haha
okay im betting on myself i won't have a realationship in year to come with my attitude like this. im so stress right now.
i really need to work. my side band sideline is touring the Philippines country.
that im not nervous, just that im worried about money. flight money and that.
i'ver already miss a chance to get to HONG KONG. my friend, he's the organizer for the 2nd meet skimboarding competition. he really want me to come to hong kong. i don't know why, maybe we look alike when we first saw each other at penang beach.
oohhh he was ready getting to pay me for the flight. but the hotel stay i would settle my own bill. but the problem is im broke. pockets empty and its burning red.
ah.! and hari raya's sucks. i get like 70+ and now till this letter. i got like 30+
how am i supposed to survive. mum's no more giving me any pocket money. oh and i forget to tell you something. raymond and epull spot 2 white hair. see how much stress i am.

maybe i should like stop thinking about money. find some job cause im finishing school in like 30 days? yyeah. i've count. i have to pass up my final year project by end of this month. and final year report and lastly will be that presentation for our project. brains not functioning that well and its migraine each time i think too much. and i can't sleep well.

drop that stress essay. i want to relax myself this saturday and sunday anyone free to the beach? kite flying? anyone?
ahh and and and i bought a cage fr my new pet rabbit. im getting a rabbit soon tomorrow from debbie, bassist stronza d-beat!
yeah! she is giving me, and still we cant know weather it's a female or male. cause its shy as fuck. yeah. i need to like let her/him smell my hands. ooh im s happy. the last time i have a pet when i was in primary schools. those were the days when i was living at ubi road. and it was on the first story. living on the first story is abit like kampong style.

yeah! tomorrow im meetinh syirr ealiest 10am? oh i need to log out. and my brother's back. i've just vacuum the house. and he came pooof. he is asleep. too tired till he sleeps at the "chill place" ahh yes. carpet. when there is a comfortable bed that haven't been touch for a week? hahah. okay im off.

2007-10-19T11:56:00.001-07:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY RAYMOND.
MAY YOU SUCCEED IN LIFE, AND GET ATTACHED? HAHA.

-_-''''''''' <--- typical emotion

2007-10-18T21:39:00.000-07:00

oh and im starting to listen to jamiroquai "high times 1992 - 2006"
those bass line are pretty impact and makes me want to be like
Paul Turner the bassist of jamiroquai

hmm today marks the first day of school. for me yeah.
and shit i didn't bring my PE attire. and i was sweating like hell in the school hall. it was raining and my moh my my teacher name was pamela. well she doesnt have that big like pamela andreson. HHAHAHA
and so i played sepak takraw and badminton. and raj gave me 50$ he won toto.
how lucky that fucker. he won like twice.
1st price was like 6000+ and this time he won 5632$ and he win again last wednesday. another 300+
makes me wanna try out toto. but its against my religious. the first price is more than half a million.
aaaaah.! and this army/police thing keep bugging on my head. and and
I CAN'T REALLY SLEEP WELL FOR THESE FEW WEEKS?
MAYBE I DON'T SLEEP QUITE EARLY FOR THE PAST 4WEEKS.
NOT USE TO THE CONDITION? I GUESS.
ahh. with that 50$ i bought instant noodle,clear 3 in 1 men shampoo,toothbrush,facial wash and i have 33.56 with me. and i wanted to cut my hair like adam brody.
*well this is the example of his hair GIRLS DON'T DROOL. PLEASE.*

im dropping that signing on thingy and focus on my studies for its gonna end this december i got like a bout 30days left. so yeah.
and and i think we should obey. haha -_-''''''''' <--- typical emotion

azri damnit

2007-10-17T21:07:00.000-07:00

here what up on my head. my bestfriend (during secondary)
well he got into 1st battalion Guards.
that's what i want and i didn't get it. what wrong with the government. when the person who doesn't want to serve gets in and the one who wants to die fro the country get shitty vacancies. this country a new type of action man. im sitting down thinking what can i do when i enslisted to the POLICE ACADEMY on 8APRIL 2008.
my dream was to be in the army. commando or either guards. but they give it to the wrong person. damn it. and i have not been to school lately. 2 days and i have not been to school. my advisor call me up to check and i gave them a false report. that i had stomach flu.lol no MC and i have to get a letter sign by my mum with her HP.
she is having too much stress and she is sick. how how.! fuck.

hari raya day 1

2007-10-14T17:06:00.000-07:00

1. usually i got up in the morning and went to the mosque to have my hari raya prayers.
but instead i woke up like around 1pm++
all i got to say way i have no happy feelings to this year hari raya. its like just a normal day with lots of malays wearing baju kurung and yeah.

but i was happy to see my lovely cousins! those only close to me. yeah right.
here are the piccas.
*aqil hardcore dancing. lol. my bro's idea.*

*live sXe! LOL*

*The cousins and the nephew.*

*welcome to the hood ryann.*

*That cute boy.*

*the makciks calls them the handsome boy*

*the cutest nephew.*

*lots of picture taken and look at his face. ooh.*

and i guess this year raya. that make me happy was family and cousins and NEPHEW!!! hahah and the money don't make me happy. i got 69$

acer aspire 3003nwlci

2007-10-13T05:09:00.000-07:00

TOO ALL THOSE WHO KNOW ME OR DON'T KNOW ME.
I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO MAKE AN-ANNOUNCEMENT.
MY ULCER IS GETTING BIGGER. -_-
HAAHAH.
NO!! ITS A BOUT HARI RAYA. I WOULD LIKE TO SEEK FORGIVENESS. IF THERE'S ANY WRONG-DOING OR ANY HARSH WORDS BEING USED APON YOU. IF YOU ARE NOT THICK SKIN. COME MY HOUSE. THERE ARE TOO MUCH COOKIES TO BE FINISHED.

and so fasting month is over.
and epull is attached. very much happy for him but not for raymond. i still don't know what on his mind. i need to kick start his head. but pardon me for just know wrong doing of mine. sorry.

its 4:59am and im still have not sleep. when i was on my way home from raffles city. in the bus, i was knocking my head on the glass door and sayed to myself : "go home, straight land to the bed uhh.." but i was busy at the toilet and watching tv. and eating late night supper from mad delivery. i ws fucking hungry like i have been fasting for like a month. haha.
okay now im feeling a bit tired.
i don't know about later. what it would be using that baju kurung so white. must have stained on it as my mum calls me no lips guy.aha there must be something wrong when i munch or what. aaha. okay so now lulu and zul is talking to me at msn.
hmmm lots of message being received from various type of peoeple seeking forgiveness.
hmm technology nowadays i prefer you guys come to my house ans seek forgiveness. yeah?
ahha. lol. and i need someone. some partners. im loosing too many partner. they turned and backstab me. hmmm i need a true partner that can hmm love? nahh. im not ready for a relationship. hmm in fact now im talking bout relationship for the first time on my blog. oohh have i been to gay?
is blog for men is gay?
hmmmm gay.?
theres 2 meaning.
one of which is happy.
the other one. most people would know. even those in primary school kids knows it.
tsktsktsk. what are they teaching them so young?
i think they even know about dating and realationship ans sex. ooh.
okay bye.
selamat hari raya.
i have a back pain aching. its painful.
and monday is a school day how i wish i could take back time sign on to army and by now im filthy rich. but i need to serve them for 5 fucking years.
yeahh worth it the pay. but goverment? hmm thinking twice.
policepolice thats what its is now in my mind. im being sent to be a policemen for my ns
and its this 8april. ohh..

festival

2007-10-11T20:14:00.000-07:00

The best movie ever 2007. i give 5 popcorn for this.
actually i like this kind of movie. my precious most interesting movie was the butterfly effect. haha guess the number 23 is true. they have this laws of 5 and our fore fathers knew of this number 23. its more likely to the Christians. i guess.

The best movie ever 2007. i give 5 popcorn for this.
and i just bought my "baju kurung"
and i had 2 ulcer and its freaking pain. i was eating long john and each bite is like... mmmm painful? yeah sort off. hmmm so yeah bought the bonjela cost me $4.80
which is expensive.
and now im freaking bored. i just put up the lighting. and the curtains. hmm
this year i really don't feel like celebrating. as
1. it like too fast to know that its raya festival.
2. i have not been fasting for like a week. aahahah
3. this year will be a different place. i prefer the old tampines place. very like those kecoh kecoh in the fish market. aa.
4. i bought my baju kurung that is so white.
5. my hair isn't growing.
6. this will be my last year getting green packets, maybe NOT. last year this aunt of mine ask me have i finish my NS or are you working. i was like hmm issit that im tall to be working or being in the NS. lol. ahah.

and mostly. I DON'T HAVE THIS FEELING THAT IM GOING TO GET GREEN PACKET EATING SO MUCH PLAYING FIRE CRACKERS, WEARING THE NISEST BAJU KURUNG. OOOHH MY.

and bettter put all hte bonjela on that ulcer. heal you freaking bastard! before raya can. cause i want to try alll those delicious kuih and food my aunt cook.
ooh.

say move sucker move!

2007-10-10T14:56:00.000-07:00

Oh fau, thanks for the song.
It's in my head now. thanks for downloading for me.
I couldn't find this song

COLDPLAY- TROUBLE

O no, I see,
I spun a web, it's tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I said,
O no what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
I turned to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,

i never meant to cause you trouble,
And I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
O no, I never meant to do you harm.

O no I see,
A spider web and it's me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
Here I am in love in a bubble,

Singing, I never meant to cause you trouble,
I never meant to do you wrong,
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Although I never meant to do you harm.

They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.

mum's sick. pity her she keep coughing. i hope she is fine.
oh today was a rough day.
3 guys came crashing my house. whooohoo
*epull*

*raymond*

*hafiz nanke*

totally was having fun eating laughing movie marathoning and of course playing cs.
hahaha and some obsessive videos.
and they went out early.
i was cleaned my house. mostly vacuum & mopping clearing all those dust.
meetthe boys around 6:45pm
oh my i saw shehana and fahamie. haha lol.
they look different more like matured adults,
and things have change alot. town fill with fashion gangsters
ohh. and now im still can sleep its 5:31 am and im chewing straws. haha
eiee tak puasa., ahah okay im getting my baju kurung with my cousin.

YOU MAKE ME SHED MY TEARS. NOW ITS PAYBACK TIME.

2007-10-08T23:05:00.000-07:00

The word critic comes from the Greek κριτικός, kritikós - one who discerns, which itself arises from the Ancient Greek word κριτής, krités, meaning a person who offers reasoned judgement or analysis, value judgement, interpretation, or observation. The term can be used to describe an adherent of a position disagreeing with or opposing the object of criticism.

Modern critics include professionals or amateurs who regularly judge or interpret performances or other works (such as that of artists, scientists, musicians or actors) and, typically, publish their observations, often in periodicals. Critics are numerous in certain fields, including art critics, music critics, film critics, theatre or drama, restaurant and scientific publication critics.

Criticism in general terms means democratic judgement over the suitability of a subject for the intended purposes, as opposed to the authoritarian command, which is meant as an absolute realization of the authority's will, thus not open for debate.

Criticism is the activity of judgement or informed interpretation. In literary and academic contexts, the term most frequently refers to literary criticism, art criticism, or other such fields, and to scholars' attempts to understand the aesthetic object in depth. In these contexts the term "critic", used without qualification, most frequently refers to a scholar of literature or another art form. In other contexts, the term describes hostility or disagreement with the object of criticism. Sometimes context, and the contentiousness of the subject, are the only differentiating factors between these two approaches. In politics, for instance (as in the phrase "criticism of U.S. foreign policy"), criticism almost exclusively refers to disagreement - while in an academic, artistic, or literary context (as in "criticism of Romantic poetry") it usually refers to the activity of subtle interpretation or analysis.

Criticism can also be a tool of an anti-social behavior, such as a passive-aggressive attack.

Constructive criticism is a form of communication in which a person tries to correct the behavior of another in a non-authoritarian way, and is generally, a diplomatic approach about what another person is doing socially incorrect. It is 'constructive' as opposed to a command or an insult and is meant as a peaceful and benevolent approach. Participatory learning in pedagogy is based on these principles of constructive criticism.

Constructive criticism is the process of offering valid and well-reasoned opinions about the work of others with the intention of helping the reader or the artist, rather than creating an oppositional attitude. An art critic can also be a champion of a new artistic movement in the face of a hostile public (e.g. John Ruskin), using scholarship and insight to show the value and depth of a new style. Critics might even champion a wholly new art medium; for instance the century-long critical struggle to have photography recognised as a valid art form.

There can be a tension between constructive and useful criticism; for instance, a critic might usefully help an individual artist to recognise what is poor or slapdash in their body of work - but the critic may have to appear harsh and judgemental in order to achieve this.

Criticism: An evaluation, both good and bad, based on prior knowledge.

I KEEP IT SMALL WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT MY BANDS AND TALK ABOUT MY FRIENDS.
MUTHA-FUCKER YOU THINK WE ARE COOL? NO WE ARE NOT TILL YOU ALL CAME AND SPREAD THE NEWS METALCORE IS SHIT. WHATEVER IT IS WE STAND TOGETHER AND WE ARE IN THE STREAM. YOU GUYS THINK BACK AND THATS YOUR ROOTS. I LOOK BACK AND I SEE MYSELF BEING SMALL AND STILL AM. WHEN YOU GET TO PLAY OVERSEAS DON GO SPREAD ABOUT US. COME ON YOU MUTHA-FUCKERS TALK TO US. FACE - TO - FACE.
COME ON MAN, WHEN YOU GUYS ARE PLAYING MUSCI ISN'T IT SUPPOSED TO BE POSITIEVE HELPING ONE ANOTHER AND BEING UNITY.
UNITY IS THE KEYWORD MY BACKSTABBBER FRIENDS.
IF FIST FLYING IT IS. THEN BE PREPARED. YOU HAVE DONE TOO MUCH MESS NOW. WE HAVE BEEN KEEPING LOW FROM THE DAY YOU START.
YOU MAKE ME SHED MY TEARS. NOW ITS PAYBACK TIME.

AND TO MY BROTHER(AND I FUCKING MEAN THAT YOU ARE A TRUE BROTHERS.
EPULL, RAYMOND AND ALIF)
THOSE WORDS ARE FROM A MOUTH THAT IS ANRY. I TAKE BACK MY WORDS. I APOLOGIES.
AND I FIGHT YOU YOU GUYS. WE SHALL FIGHT FOR THE BLOOD. WE SPEAK THE TRUTHS.
BE FUCKING PREPARE.!
THERE WILL BE NO FORGIVENESS.
YOU WON'T DESTROY US. WHEN WE KNOW YOU GUYS ARE FUCKING WEAK IN THE CIRCLE OF FRIENDS.
HEY THATS THE TRUTH. READ ABOUT CRITICS. THAT MIDDLE FINGER WAS A FACT - TO FACE CRITIC.

default winners.

2007-10-08T15:00:00.000-07:00

RACE DAY 1.
it was hectic. i meet the boys at bedok mrt. and the weather was freaking hot as usual near east coast. and we register, checks the tracks briefing and we got interview for this newspaper from student errmm i forgot. and so we did qualify for the FINALS!!

click here for the timing on first day. (my team : UG FORCE)
here are some pictures for the day 1.

DAY 2
oh before that i knew we are going o qualify for the finals.
ridwan call me up trying to scare me with the prank tactics.
he told me i need to bail him out at east coast pit 4. OMG!! ahaha.
meet them at 7 before that. i was already awake at 5+ eating and smoking till like 6+ haha i didn't see the time at all. and when i discard the cigg butt, it hits one of the bike below parking. i was like guck. then while walking towards the bus-stop one of the guys came from no where takes out his keys and that was his bike. i was like fuck! hahaha. what a coincidence.
okay reach bedok around 8am. and we were too early we talk to this guy who owns bridgestone tyre.
and we were watching the media racing together, i was supporting for the journalist from HOTSTUFF magazine LOL> and i saw lots of _______ wow! lots of celebrity, one of which was this actress, and melody chen! omg. okay i being way over.
ahaha.
while it was our turn. i was the first driver.
mutha-fucking one of the driver from pit was was playing hard hitting me twice from the back all the time. like i did something wrong to him. he was staring at me for quite some time when i was looking at him. hahah then this guy came up to me who emerge champion for the CAT A, he was scared to see me and that fucker staring each other while he was at the back trying to past up end up we were controlling his fate. haha.
now im more focus on who is hitting me then getting my timing perfect. i was driving like a noob. when i know i could do better. the first driver was a chinese obviously they want to win by crashing and i was doing nothing wrong. going to 4round i was on the pit cause someone bang me from the back makes me go to the pit. i was so fucking stress i know i can do it but some stupid fuck face drivers don know the rules format.
and 3 groups got DQ-disqualify. and we were straight as default got 3rd place when we didnt't complete cause when it was on my 2nd karter, the tyre cames out. he was scared shit. and he was yeah crying cause he knows we are going to scold him but we didn't eh, we know we were champions man. but we try to protest for a re-run but we couldn't get but we got 3rd place by default lots of pictures here and there and next year we will be competing . haaha
i swear i see that fucker im gonna throw some fist in his face. that mutha-fucking don know who he is dealing with!!

HERE'S THE RESULT FOR THE FINALS. WE CAME IN 14 MINUTES? AHHA sure ornot? lol
click here

24hours till x-racer wannabe

2007-10-04T17:17:00.000-07:00

this is what happened when you never used Listerine for ages.
i pour too much on the bottle cap till it flows and and the flow goes to my... ehmmmm yeah. its like hot now. i can't describe it. why don't you try?
if you don have any Listerine, you can try putting toothpaste

1. now its 1 more day till racing day it will be at east coast near ski 360 yeah.
so come with ur family and support my team. and i don't know what prize if i win. ahaha.

2. its like 5 more days till hari raya. i have not bought any clothes. house have not been cleaning. oohh.

*all cousins talk with ryann picture insert.*

*BATMAN PART 2. (the naked costume. :P)*

*this is me. with lots of thing. kiasu whatt. hah*

ERGH.

2007-10-03T18:51:00.000-07:00

im lazy,2 more days till racing time and i have lots of problem.
damnit azri damnit. together we stand devided we fall, but i don see and togetherness. and im lazy to have another side projects no more. with those people have only 5minutes of "enthusiasm" hmmm . thats big time shit of time.

And yeah, great thing comes once a at time. I,raymond,paat went to the 40th story of this new block at Toa Payoh near police post. And we manage to get to the roof top. and the wind was blazing. you could see the whole singapore, now i know singapore isn't that big. hahahaha and and i think we made it obvious, i switch on the whole light on the roof top. adn the other 3 block had no light on the ropptop. took lots of pictures. and the next day we went up agin with just slippers.
ohh picture will tell. hahaha.
OKAYNOW I CAN'T TRANSFER ANYTHING WITH THOSE FLASHY ON MY THUMB DRIVE MY MP3 AND MY HP.
MUTHAFUCKER.!!! DAMN

ASDF

2007-09-30T22:50:00.000-07:00

oh im using facebook it because I WANT TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH MY HONG KONG FRIENDS.
okay and right now is to kick some real bothering ass.
right. and i think im invisible, im always at home and home is always boring friends are attached and so they are busy, how i wish there's no school holidays. Rather then bing at home flipping classified newspapers searching for part-time job and hearing the same old verse "i will call you back. thank you for coming"

at this point all i can see is that im trying my best to meet all my secondary school friends. maria is going to perth to further her studies. and i just had dinner with her,naz and sj. those are my councillor friends those really close with me. oh and maria told us about where she is going to stay and i was imagining myself if i was in her shoe. alone in another country hmm.
first, i will find a true friend that have the same interest with me like gigs,movie,talking,skating,surf, extreme sports and mostly he or she must know music. ahah that what will keep us talking everday. hha okay im imagining too much. hopefully she will be safe there alone. PRAY. and so we took lots of pictures. OH my. she love green. my fav colour(like yeah. its green here.). haha and nazri is being such an ass every time we would me for like dinner or something with his long face most of the time. ERGHHH!

tomorrow hopefully there is still vacancy for part time job at the National Library. yeahhh. librarian, i have to called in first. hopefully. pray for me.
thanks . and my brother bought the "kuta" waahh like lawa like that.

can we start again?

2007-09-25T17:28:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY~ dear cuzzie razmin! yeah 1 more year and free. haha.
Holiday's ON. but i have no mood to be on it, i want to work work and work for this 3 un-healthy weeks. i have been on my bed 24hours.
ooh ooh and this sunday another money-out-again , dinner with maria and shu-juan and nazri, maria's leaving singapore on 3rd October to australia to continue her studies.
can i pursue my dreams too? with my bands along and my knowledges.
bands and crew are giving me headaches. how i wish those people who aren't supposed to be in should be out.

and i was bored. i scan half the pictures on my photo album. ahaha thosw fondest memories. how i wish that there were more pictures when i grow up. really pictures tell thousand different words.

*The teacher boys will discuss everday. *

*last day of our primary 4 days?*

*my bestfriends and close neighbours. lost contact now. he call me azerie*

*my late grandfather smoking. close cousin and me. robocop time *

*the boys. we fight usuallly when we meet*

*YAY! bouncers wannabe*

*i shot the sheriff, at that time robocop and transformer was my influence.*

*the upset face, cause i don get to be in robocop's car instead back to the future car.*

*kallang stadium. some shows.*

*i was FORCED by my mum.*

*after some dinner.*

*it was my sister birthday?*

*fauziah latiff, woohoo!! and my cousin kak julie. *

*not my birthday, but you know kids.*

*past hari raya. *

oh my my .

2007-09-21T23:40:00.000-07:00

few hours of sleep. from adventurous lorry ride.
and now im eating with my secondary friend who i like to compete my studies with, joke along.. those were the days girls are boys and boys are girls. haha we really had much fun laughing. but its no fun without the rest, its always the 7 of us.

*hakim*

*hakim*

*azzlan*

*syahirah,ammerul*

*nazri*

*nazri *

*---*

*matrep*

*me and the girl farhanah my mother like. haha she is going to India *

and trip to geylang was unhappy. lots of typical malay freak. yeah i know
its geylang dress appropriate fuckers. that is why malay society is dropping.

sick of it all

2007-09-17T18:56:00.000-07:00

im getting sick and much more sick by the night and better in the afternoon.
haaaaa. and i can still fast. oh my.
i have not been to school fro the past 3 days. and i NEED TO TURN UP FOR TOMORROWS CLASS. she kept on calling me to come for the 10am class instead of coming at 1am. i hope i can make it. i can wake up. i must sleep early today. no more computers. endure 4 more days to holiday. i need time to relax.. and
and i miss you. :(
it feels like im back with her. oh my. she msg me.
oh can't wait to get out from the house with maria,nazri,shu juan and xui hui.
secondary comeback! woohoo lol. ohkay.
i think i need to keep it low man about 1-v. its spreading fast. and i know im not fit or whatsoever.
im gonna make you my brothers up to my words. live it.

2007-09-17T03:51:00.000-07:00

SUPER

2007-09-16T10:50:00.000-07:00

okay i'm super sick today. i skipped school for 2 days but i still go out. i should have listen to my mom i know. anyway, i went karting. in the rain some more. i wanna do it again. then my house blackout like wth. okay that's it for now because i'm super sick. you'll be expecting a super long entry from me tomorrow.

flu & flush

2007-09-15T18:13:00.000-07:00

its hard these days to wake up the time you really want and not to be late, and how you wish you could drive the public bus so you could reach on time.
Don't anything interrupt your journey and be early and not late of course not.
that is my dream. if i was early.. it would be TOO early and i'll find some place quite to have my quick nap.

and so i've got this briefing for the national go-kart racing competition. its a tag-team. no reserved, so no one can be absence on that day or the briefing and he i am wasting time and not to fall asleep after got back from lil conversation with epull,raymond,faris,ah-tank. we were you know talking bout shirt design. okay full stop.
i dead bored by 3-15am
watching in her shoes. Cameron diaz is pretty. and with that i cooked 3pieces of frozen prata. and contine my moviee.. answer ridhwan called. he sounds so shock to hear my voice i guess? hhaha ohkay. now i freaking bored with my flu and my on off fever.
just wants me to "batal" my fasting time only. "fishcake"<-- theres a reason to it beside the F word. aha.
okay now i want tissue.
good day and fast hard you muslim. today is saturday and im going to jurong ___ for my briefing on the go-kart and
my precious,AVA,Kate Of kale @ scape youth center FREE!
subtle revenge, ila mitra, elegy for uliza, the psalms. @ beats $2 + donations.

see you guys
.

29 more days.

2007-09-13T20:04:00.000-07:00

and so i try fasting for the first time. i pass when I'm terrible sick low immune haha. i have sore throat and ulcer on my mouth, how painful when i was trying those fav food that was served on PUASA time. damn. and cigarette now comes in free when i want to quit for the 3rd time. my brother passed me 1 stick. and paat passed me another 6stick. damn it.

and soo i was in bed the whole day i survived with CS and the godfather game. oh i woke up at about 5pm plus.
and and tomorrow is my test. fucking SNA! damn it bye. need to study..

fasted

2007-09-12T23:16:00.000-07:00

school was so fucking.bored i just had to show my face and my advisers when for a meeting. so and so i started playing cs.
oh ya. i join the Singapore marathon. and the school only sponsor us IF we join in for the 10KM ONLY. but i want to join for the 24KM. but nvr mind. i have to go for the medical check-up by my own expense.

AND I KNOW I SKIP SCHOOL TODAY. when all my friends are having fun skating and jamming
while im clicking and scolding and studying. not actually studying really. i was talking to my smoking brothers. haha lol. i meet syirr! ahh finally got to meet her after baybeats? she got the AVA drum stick/. so what?!!
;p. ahh. and we when to buy bubble tea. and when to straits record new stock coming in.
check out so many new cds! i really need to work. but for now i think no CAUSE ITS FASTING MONTH. HAA. AND I'M FEELING SICK ALREADY. for sure my mum would tell me to fast as she know i like to tell lies.
but its true im feeling sick. ahh. okay so i need to study for my friday test. module 1 to 8. and thursday is PE. i really want to fast!!
please god. help me.

funeral

2007-09-11T22:34:00.000-07:00

For the first time of my life
i wne to a concert/gig that i usually see them on youtube,videos, listen to their songs.
FFAF was great. but they played more of their new song, i prefer the old album.
but indeed i got to kick some white ass. haha they were talking big all the time wearing those death-metal bands. and and going to FFAF?
hahah. and finally got a picture of me body-surfing. thanks to the crowds in front and the SECURITY! bloody hell he slammed me through the amp. and i was shouting at him to stop cause my shoe fell of. dammn bloddy stupid security. i think i was the first one to cross over.
FFAF was playing my favourite songs which is this year most open heartbreak.
and i saw zhafran(SR guitarist) as the security.
and i join back the crowds. people was looking at me as if i got a horn on my head. stupid fashion-core stupid core kids.
ahh.
thats about it. and and it was 10th sep my sis birthday. she getting older.
nyeahaha. lol. okay bye.

PRISON-BREAK

2007-09-06T23:48:00.000-07:00

ohkay. so prison visit is not like visiting the science center or zoo or any excursion you find your school offer.
at first i thought, we are going to visit the prison at CHANGI. the real prison. but we got to visit the DRC - Drug Rehabilitation Center. SUCKS!! thats like "3 star hotel"
i want the 1star hotel. hhah.

okay so we were treated like INMATES! we have to walk in 2 and no talking and tuck in your shirt. and and when you arrived at a point, you have to squat. and at that time we went to the doom and listening to the warden briefing while we were squatting for like 10 minutes. feets are shaking and there the warden told ask whats the feeling when you are squatting. i answer immediately while the rest kept quite.
and we get to see live caning to the ass.
a video of the inmates get their ass smacked. and a live demonstration but with the dummies, the swing of the wood cane makes me feel the pain. and makes me remind of the caning i got primary school time. that was minor. but this. really shakes my head and not to take any drugs.!

there were inmates as we tour their "house" and dorm. those big guys are really big and all those secret societies gang chief are all inside. haaa. and there was this inmate keep on looking at me with those muscle, at first i was scared. yeah. but at the end. i told myself this fucker would'nt come out. so i continue to stared at him. hahah.
and its really sucks to be prison. this is what i want to stressed to my friends who are taking that. its harmful and the warden are huges tough-guy they are bigger when you are just a gangster.
i seriously don't want to get involve there or neither SS.
so this was a lesson LEARNT for me. sorry no camera phone inside. NO. NOTHING TO BE CARRIED INSIDE, EVEN A PACKET OF TISSUE.

i got their entrance but i don't wish to post it.
i don't wish to be detained for 48hours. so yeah. bye.
tomorrow will be waking up early. 8am. hopefully i could make it for friday's lesson. and friday prayer... better start praying ....

counseling

2007-09-05T23:49:00.000-07:00

AND I AM GOING TO FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND CONCERT!
fuck off who thinks FFAF is emo or what. i get in for free.
and and 1 for me the other 1 is.. hmmm

and school must be going to often. i had counseling for my module SNA and FYP.
i gave all kind of excuses. hah, they believe it. thanks.
and my lecturer pick me to go for a PRISON VISIT TOMORROW! i know im just naughty, playing truant only.. but not till that extent!
or mayb. when i cut bald. i look like MS? hah okay can't be.
i will try to take some pictures inside.! hah.

this is me. when im going to act in the simpsons movie in 2019.
the pants sucks.

LATENESS

2007-09-03T00:28:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to paat. the friend whom i can trust.
always there for me.! thanks 5years of brotherhood and my drummer. haha
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BRO!

okay so i took out the stitches. the nurse counted and they were only 8.
and when the doctor over at TTSH told me there were 11stitches. who to believe? i don' know. just now there is a scar. a scar to remember..

and i work at comex just for 1 day and the rest of the day i cabot.
and im just too lazy to go t school and too lazy to listen to my friends whine.
go drink wine better.

2007-08-22T23:54:00.000-07:00

woke up from a nightmare dreaming about my ear and next thing i know blood stained on my pillow. sleeping time was horrible man.
How i wish i wouldn't jump to the net and why my first jump, the camera didn't captured it. the second picture after, my ear loop snap.
why. damn it. its the rather painful time in my life.

well my final year project is giving me a headache with my groupmate not doing anything EXCEPT for playing LAN games.

hmmm. and i join that CALTEX NATIONAL KART RACING CHALLENGE along with my old school mate. the unformgroup. alif, ridwan, taufiq and my best friend hafiz.

meeting them this sunday and need money for the registration
and i HAVE NOT pay the medical fee. damn..

undress

2007-08-21T22:48:00.000-07:00

I finally took and end of it. Took out the dressing, so it would recover faster and people won't like stare at that obvious dressing, and so my classmate start talking about my ear. and they are STARTING TO FREAK ME OUT. just 11 stitch and its on the ear. what more can i do? i just asnwer them what they ask. thats it. few more days to unstitch. But here's the problem angeline says unstitch is painful then stitching hmm im thinking should i or should not... i had enough pain now. the injection the anti-infection injection total of 6 painful injection which the nurse told me "NO PAIN", they think im retard and don't know what pain is. ARSE!
Oh. the stitch is made obvious from the colour of the string. it's in dark blue. cool? i think they have too many colours now depend on the patients. but i couldn't take the pain anymore and he chosed blue. not bad. and sleeping time is no more my favourite past-time for me. keep hitting those stitch and wake me up like i have a real dream!
this must stop to the end.

THIS SATURDAY, MIDNIGHT FUCKING MADNESS.
*comrades are covering STYG-this is more, CBK-false idol fall,Throwdown-forever,Hatebreed-defeatist
*listen to forgive - threshold
*overthrown always good to see them live. great guitarist and vocals!

but but how about my stitch? place is small and more crowds means much more hotter. nurse told me to keep clean. damn. and its free.

aftermath

2007-08-19T19:33:00.000-07:00

i must sleep on just 1 side. and not on my fav left side. cause of the stitch. ARGH! and bathing seem sucks that i don really want to bath now. i feel like taking out the dressing. its painfull now. day 3.