selamat hari jadi ibuku

HAPPY 54th BIRTHDAY MUM!!!
she's 54 this year and im 19.
the best mum i could have although there is up and down.
1 best lady in the world must be her. she who carry me around when im about to see the world. i was thinking i live with her for 19years already. no! i didn't count the day and month when i was in her womb. i'm just glad she is still alive till this date having her by my side is the fondest and yet calms me down when my heart jumps.

when can i work and ask her TO STOP WORKING. really sad to see her coming out pocket money and going out to work at 10:30pm seeing that just make another hate on my fucking dad, he is not fit to be called as a dad. FUCK OFF! yeah see my middle finger. guess what, my aunt (father's sister) called me and ask me how i and my siblings doing these year and replied okay, im obviously waiting for NS, brother sign on with cisco, and last my sister is doing her last year in seconday taking N level. she ask how my mum is. and i wanted to say "she is working hard for me and my other sibling and also why care about her when you pple(father side) thinks my mum doesn't suits ur brother(my "dad")". but instead i reply she is working still supporting my family, then she say "ur father is really really ill. don't you wanna visit him." i paused for a second and didn't want to answer. she called my name. and response "he still alive? and still at living at petir road blk 402?" ohh ohkay. i will visit him.. and i say i needed to go.

haha. at first i thought it was bad. but fuck yeah he deserve that and all his family side. im 19 now i can think and i know who is right and wrong. i have my own eyes and my own ears. till now i didnt even visit him at his house apparently my house too. so if he is dead that's my property! WOOHOO! lol.

yeah. im just sick when you guys say my father name. it really hurts but i try to keep it all in my heart and smile. because of him my school fees is so expensive, not that im proud it. who wants to be proud of it when you are single-parent. my mums not that rich, and school fees about 100+ and fucking dead dad didnt want to give us money every month!
this is my story. so you guys who like disturbing me indian and also ali,thats my father name... you can see the sadness or my anger yet quite face. you know what i think off. lots of stuff i could remember of him.

yeah fuck off. i don't want to be a evil dad like my dad. he even abuse me before when i was like crying only its like when i was only 2yrs old. imagine he threw me to the couch and my mum was there she saved me from being rebound off the couch to the floor if not i think i'm crazy by now of worse i wont't have meet you guys or short DEAD!. yeah a slight hit to the brain when you are baby could cause dead. read the newspaper. yeah...


so this is about my dad. actually i wanted to wish my mum her 54th birthday when i suddenly talk about this.
FUCK FUCKFUCK.

now i just have to wait till my first pay working as toys'r'us. im starting on my mum's birthday. OMG!!!
then i can remember when i start my work usually i don't remember. but since im starting when its on my mum's birthday i can of course remember it with pride.

okay. i got my contact lens. and there's these hot lady at the counter rubbing my hand and also teaches me ow to use the lens. ahaha....
rubbing as in teaching how to rinse the lens or so. don think so like dirty minded la blogspot. hahahaha
okok
tomorrow's first day. big impression not carrying balls. :>